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DAY 2 OF LASALLE!

2011-08-04T06:12:00.000-07:00

Day 2 of Lasalle!Haha feels like a week though.Started school on Wednesday since my tuesday class was cancelled!Had trouble sleeping on tuesday night so I was on tired after school and I wanted to plank on the bed at 9 but In my opinion only babies sleep at 9 so i kept myself awake till 10.hahaha super bo liao sorry if u sleep at 9 and I just called you an infant.

Went to strictly pancakes with Amelia, Nicolette and Tiphaine(my new pals yay!).Tiphaine's from PARIS!OMG. I asked her if she watched Monte Carlo.cos its the only show I could think of which featured Paris.Now that I have time to think, The Da Vinci code was filmed there!!!Oh and my favourite cartoon MADELINE! i shall sing the song to her maybe she will sing along too cos she prob watched it as a Kid. He he I think shes really funny cos she saw some people setting up the getai stage and asked if it was a musical performance.So nic and I explained the ghost festival to her and when she heard the music she went" bad music,really bad music, I think the ghost wont like it".hahahahha

And NIC is my primary school classmate from primary 1-3!!!Omg!on the first day we sat next to each other and then we recognised each other immediately! She recognised me from my voice.Shit.I didnt know i still sound so kiddish.grrr..Well I am kinda excited! I have 2 years to get to know them and of course the rest of the class better.I havent gotten the time and opportunity to mingle and sing jingles with the rest of the class but I hope to get to know more people!!

After 2 hours of lesson tomorrow, I have holidays till WEDNESDAY!THATS 5 FREAKING DAYS OF HOLIDAY!WHEEEEEEEEE! Super excited much cos on Monday I will be going to the zoo with nic and tif and then on tuesday the clique will be meeting to watch the national day parade!!!!!!!!!

I MISS THE CLIQUE LIKE SUPER ALOT!REALLY! I shall hug them all so tight on tuesday.School made me miss them more I dont know why.I guess it brought back memories of us crapping,joking and chilling in secondary school!I love that they all know what I am trying to say without me having to complete my sentence.

I miss VC sooooo much also!Its like we are so comfortable with one another and we can scream sing and shout freely in class.Plus everyone is really helpful like I remember asking Kai Min and Faiz to help me cut stuff and they were really helpful abt it.And when I asked for feedback,Li rong,Ame,Anggy,Mels, Giraffe,Haz and of course my best gals Chrissie and Charis never fail to point out what can be improved,what is good.I REALLY WANT TO MEET U GUYS SOON AND I LOVE U GUYS LOADS!write on my tag board that u miss me back too ok.hahha joking la dont need to! I want to have good memories at Lasalle too! I shall give myself more time to interact with others. Kinda just nervous that its gonna be so competitive and that everyday is gonna be so challenging and all.K shall go bathe and end with a photo of myself and my newly dyed hair!

My Journey as a bubbletea girl:)

2011-08-01T02:44:00.000-07:00

Last Friday Marked the very last day of my adventure as bubbletea girl! It was a fun experience even though I got langa-ed by the stupid fridge door and my fingers got kiap-ed on a few occassions causing me to yell expletives silently in my heart.Yea, I know selling bubbletea isnt like the most respected job. Some people probably think its silly and a waste of time while others probably think its like a job for no brainers cos all u have to do is memorise some recipes and all. But I mean,I am only young once so I just wanna do something I know I will have fun and enjoy. I mean when I am 30,I know for sure I wont take this as a full time job man. Anywaysmy friend once told me that It isnt what you do, Its how well you do it. So suck on it if u think my job sucks.

Actually, I managed to make some new friends.I really thank God for that.I mean i didnt expect to really make friends.Maybe just acquaintances that I will talk to there and then.But I got to know Renyi who works at berrylite(just next to me)and we got the same wave length and stuff and I enjoy hanging out with her:)So thats how I made a new friend.hahahahaha.cool eh.

We are like blogshop pros and that time when we went to city plaza, we could identify the items and name the blogshop which sold those items.

OK,gonna hit my post with some photos and bring you through the steps of pearl making.

1)Yup! Thats the pearls.Looks a lil like dog food. So usually I cook 4 cups of pearls in the morning and subsequently more in the evening depending on the crowd.

2) Into the hot water it goes! It takes a longer time to cook the big pearls.

(can see steam siol!haha)

3) So after letting it set for some time,the pearls are ready and I have to transfer them from the

pot to the metal siever. As i do so, water will be running down to cool the pearls down.

4) Then I have to stir them for a period of time so the pearls wont be too hot during

consumption.I burnt my finger by just holding a pearl straight from the pot.hahah ya who ask me so stupid.

5) Next, I will transfer the pearls into a metal container and then mix in the sugar and brown sugar.I shall not reveal the amount of sugar I have to put in for fear of losing customers.Honestly, I love pearls so I shall not care.

6) TADAH!the pearls are ready!Omg,dont you feel like chewing on some now?Btw pearls smell heavenly:)

Thats the smooth Jasmine green milk tea at each a cup! Each sip is pure

bliss as it trickles down your throat.Quality in every cup!hehe!

Yea thats how I look almost everyday.I dread wearing the apron.

Charles the new bubbletea boy who will be taking over me.

Days visited me one the last day!and on 2 other days.She helped

to take the ice and collect money when I am really busy.

Cheralynn,who visits me frequently and for her daily cup of oreo crush:)

Goodbye each a cup!My workplace for 3 months:)

Drinks I recommend if u wanna get a cup:

-Chocolate snowshake

-Peach Sunrise(all the sunrise are delicious)

Pearl MT

-Jasmine GMT(50%)

-Oreo Crush

-Chocolate IB

I am quite a chocolatey person.But the sunrise is really good!Most customers come back

for it after I have recommended it to them:)

Anyways thanks to all who visited me:

Jonathan(accompanied me for dinner in the shop too:),

Su anny, Candice, Amandal,Sherrie,Rens,Days,Chris,Jillian,Tony,Jared,Ivana,Nat,

Hern shunggy(he shall be awarded with a membership card),Felina,Russy,Timothy,Ryan foo(who had lunch with me in the shop)Dom,Tim,Val,Cybil.Sry if i missed out your name But i appreciate u coming down all the way:) <3 u all loads!

Fro yo! and bubbletea girl:)

LASALLE

2011-07-28T04:25:00.000-07:00

HAHA!I decided to start blogging again and this time I will maintain it!SOMPA!

Anyways yesterday was orientation day at LASALLE!WHOO! Super fun much!

We had a treasure hunt which lasted for one and a half hours. I didnt contribute much.

Kinda stood in a corner brooding and telling Charis how much I am enjoying the orientation.

Plus I was having minor cramps so I wasnt feeling excited in any way. My grp members were fine,they were participative,but we kinda got lost so all the uneccessary travelling time kind madeeverything worst.I got kinda pissy at one station cos we were given a piece of paper with various countries to memorise and when i was ever ready to blurt out the countries I memorised,the station master said "oh haha it was just something to distract u.All u have to do is come inside".

EH HELLO!NOT FUNNY PLS! I made the effort to memorise leh.Whats all these shortchanging? And at that station. we were given cards with numbers on it to call when we are depressed and wanna kill ourselves.Yup coming in handy now!Then we went for some boring talk and when the president wanted to give a speech, 3/4 of the people in the hall evacuated.

I was super appalled!Kinda rude right?and the president seem a bit shocked and helpless.Poor man. BUT HE KINDA DESERVED IT.U KNOW WHY?

COS HE INSULTED DISNEY!he said disney was CHEAP,PRETENTIOUS and that its a good representative of AMERICA!wooow wooow wooow MISTER!Disney is the opposite of whatever u said ok! Its like half of the world's childhood,It teaches children to believe in love,friendship and lasting relationships.Lastly,it made me believe in my dreams.Try achieving half of what Walt Disney has in this world curly hair dude-_-

After his very motivational talk,we proceeded to class. Met some lecturers and they briefed us abt what they expect of us.WAH.Seriously it was then that reality dawned on me. In 4 days time, I am no longer carefree bubbletea girl!NOPE! I will be busy juggling projects,rushing to the printing shop,not eating proper meals and having sleepless nights. PLUS no more last minute work cos its like I am gonna obtain a degree not a diploma cetificate:( BOOO.

But you know what, this time,I am going to commit everything and walk Closely with God knowing that he is going to empower me no matter how tough the going is and stop depending on my own strength. Its easy to say,but I always get lost in the middle. This time I am going to remind myself time and time again that I can do it!I hope that my experience in Lasalle will be a testimony to others of God's mercy upon me.

Phew, Luckily Amelia,Charis and Ama are in the same campus as me.Its always comforting to see familiar faces:)Anyways hope i can juggle mission training and school stimultaneously. On a happy note, Amandal is discharged and her palette count is up!to 80,which is still kinda risky but hopefully by saturday it will shoot up to the high heavens.

HA!will be blogging and posting up photos of me working in the bubble tea shop tomorrow!byers for now.

p.s the wind keeps blowing my skirt up.

Let me introduce you to my party people...in the clubbbbb....

2011-04-26T10:10:00.000-07:00

YO! I am back.anyways my nose is itchy.I am super addicted to on the floor by J.Lo and pitbull.

Why is she getting hotter huh...benjamin button all,all these people.tsk tsk.

Ok actually I havent been doing much.Last week went to resorts world for my orientation.It wasnt like a training strictly for the staff of the maritime museum.More for people who are working in resorts world.So its like staff training. WA....I tell you, the talk on fire hazards was so painful and excruciatingly boring.I couldnt take it I had to resort to shopping online using my phone.Like yea i will remember all 3 different coloured fire extinguisher. Eh hello when a fire come i will just grab and spray the hell outta it.Who will like calm themselves down and think whether its the right one and ponder if hydrogen,potassium or whatever comes out.Thank God anggy was with me throughout the 2 days of training.I enjoyed talking to her and just hanging out be it at lunch or during breaks:))))HELLO ANGGYLICIOUS!!if u are reading this.....ahhahaha.

Worked at the bubble tea shop on monday...theres a new comer and shes very inquisitive and eager to learn.Ok i respect that but while I was making the drinks she asked me like every step and what i was doing. Its like I was a lil worried whether i was doing it right and then here comes captain inquisitive flooding me with a billion questions and when i hinted that i cant multi task she went on and on-_-Seriously I must start memorizing the steps.Like i always mix up the blended and the oreo/chocolate blended drinks...Sometimes I get a lil bored at the shop And i feel like loading the bubble tea straws and shooting random people with the pearls.ahahahhaah i remember doing that in secondary school.like chasing people around and trying to shoot their face with the pearls.

ohhhhhhh if u missed the cutest picture on earth...here it comes...........

awwwww...seriously love chip to the max lehhhhh...hes such a darling...I think he was a lil

annoyed with the bunny ears cos he kept scratching...everytime i see this picture i just feel like kissing him and cuddling him to sleep....but hes too small:((Wished he was bigger...I mean for a hamsters hes ginormous....jillian says he looks like a rabbit cos of his plump figure...kekek...

Oh here are some behind the scene shots:))))

major cute photo of him again!!!!

heheheheh flying bunny chip:))

I kinda panicked cos i thought i felt chip nip my finger...but it was his

mini fingers scratching against mine...hehehehe

Oh oh shall share abt the stuff I got last week....seriously whoever that says money cannot buy happiness hasnt discovered retail therapy..hehehe kidding la...i guess its temporary happiness but still happiness all the same..

WHOO!!OPI shatter and hello kitty mascara....the hello kitty so cuteeeee....squeals!!!!

Front

Back!THEY ARE ALL OVER THE MASCARA!!!!cannot take it.....

And here comes the awesome nail creator!!!!TADAH!!!!OPI SHATTER.ok la I am quite slow...

I guess everyone has shattered their nails to the max and I just got it...I had a manicure done and then I got it after that,and did my mummy's nails....heheheh..

The shatter effect...cool ar like animal prints all.....leopard,zebra prints..Its really simple...

All you have to do is paint a normal coat of light coloured nail polish...I think it looks better if there is hint of glitter in ur nail polish....Then after its dry,paint a coat of shatter over.But the tricky part is the direction u paint it in.My advice is to paint it in a slanting position,the shatter will come out nicer and the strokes will be slimmer too:)))))

Sorry my fingers are super stubby....stupid corn in the corner....

NAFA interview tomorrow!Wish me luck:))

2011-04-15T10:15:00.000-07:00

Wedding and Free stuffies:)))))

2011-04-11T10:00:00.000-07:00

If you know me well, you will know that i attend weddings like free....hahaha.Maybe its a sign from God that i should be a wedding planner or something!!!But I really love attending weddings.I mean whats there to dislike abt it.I may or may not know the couple well but seeing two individuals making their vows in front of a crowd,promising to love each other come what may really makes me real happy:))But then again,its not just this day thats important but the many years ahead thats the crucial one.

I really look forward to the day I get married:)))OK not so soon.Maybe 8 years later.I still cry easily and still have pimple breakouts so I dont think I am fit to get married yet.I am gonna make sure my wedding is damn fun with games and stuff and instead of the usual walking down the aisle thing, I am going to dance and hop around with my husband.(ahahhahaha)I think after reading this no body wanna marry me already.....Oh back to the wedding.The bride is like grecian and her husband is singaporean.Shes damn tall can and she looks like a grecian goddess also.hahaha i think the grooms hair like birds nest....hehehhe

Bird nest head and Grecian Goddess

Chloe!!!!

Oh and thats chloe!!!so cute right!!so chindian and all like chris:))every chindian girl looks like chris to me!!She copied what i said cos i told my mum to help me take a pic with her...and my mum was taking her own sweet time so i exclaimed "NOW NOW NOW!"and she copied me....ahahahhaha...and then the sweet lil thing got upset that she couldnt play with her cousin's psp so i lent her my camera and she started taking random pictures....only a few came out nice cos her finger was blocking the lens...hehehhe

NOW NOW NOW!

Chloe's 1st picture

and her second one is a random unglam shot of me.

Melissa!I think i can talk more easily to girls. I dont really know what to say to little boys.They keep prancing around.hahah she asked me how I braided my hair!Ok I can relate to this topics.

Ohhhh and if you know me well again,you will know that I love taking part in lucky draws and competitions that enables me to win stuff...hahaha since i dont have money, i might as well try to luck right,anyway also no love lost.I commented on the previous Budget Barbie episode and my comment was picked and I won!!!:)))hehehe i wrote a poem but i shall not post it cos damn stupid and i super paiseh also.hahaha and the place that Qiu Ting shopped was like toa payoh and bishan which are my territories!ok tpy not bishan....hahaha I was damn happy when i received the email that notified me that i won. Ok la the items are not expensive, i mean the name of the show says it all but its the excitement and thrill of taking part!!!!whooooooo....

Ya and once again the post man hates me,he threw my parcel in but luckily it landed on the chair..not bad ar,hes quite pro at it already.....

Super excited!!!couldnt wait to rip it up!!!(My mum was damn excited also and then she congratulated me...ahahahhahahah..)

My prize!hahhaha....A japanesey top,knitted top, a smocked hot pink dress,

a pouch and 2 damn cute pens plus a note from Qiu ting.

Ya too broke to online shop so i get my clothes from other means:)))hehehehe.Anyways I really like Qiu Ting(my mum also).I think shes really sincere and shes not fake.She speaks her mind and shes not afraid to be true to herself:))))hahha I want my own show too!!!!Oh if you dont know what Budget Barbie is about,heres the link:

http://www.clicknetwork.tv/watch.aspx?c=3&p=25&v=502

Have an OCS ball coming up on the 18th and the dress that I purchased couldnt arrive on time so i have to look for an alternative....ARG....Oh got a job as a casual at the maritime museum and I am working part time at a bubble tea shop at serangoon gardens village..ahahha go visit me if u can k....i havent started work yet,should be next week so i can float around for now...free cone day is tomorrow!!!going down with jonathan...I told him we should queue twice....AHAHHAAH....

Lost but brunch was awesome!

2011-04-03T08:10:00.000-07:00

Actually I am feeling a bit lost right now. I have been thinking and I dont really what my strengths are. As in I know there are somethings that I can do however its not like I have distinct gift.Like I can do it pretty well but I dont excel and do super well in it.For example some people are known for dancing super well or being super musically inclined but I am neither here nor there.Hm...this actually disturbs me.

Take design for example,yea I enjoy what I do,I can come up with ideas but its not like my art pieces are breath taking and I dont live and breathe design at this point of time. Actually I am very interested in fashion but how far can that take me.I mean who is not interested in nice clothes right?Dressing up and wearing clothes that flatter me cant take me that far.Not like if i look good that day i will get paid,unless I am a model.Hiaz.

Actually I am very bent on the idea on setting up a blogshop but the market is super saturated right now.Unless i can think of something very different and attractive,if not I will probably make a loss?But thats still my dream and for now I shall put that idea on hold until I earn enough money for my capital.Maybe I should give it a try.After all if i fail at least I know I tried to fulfill my dream.As for now, I will try to find out my interest and strength and work hard at it.I like singing too..but hiya i cant sing as well as celine dion or any reowned artist.And even if i win Singapore Idol all i do is endorse 7-11 and maybe sing the 7-11 theme song:(((sianz

Ok timetable for tomorrow..wake up early,pack my cardboard,try to sell my brand new clothes which i havent worn cos they dont flatter me.hahahha.hopefully i can get back $200 from the whole luggage in my storeroom.Praying hard that someone will get back to me as to whether my job application is successful.I really wanna get the job as a crew member in the new maritime experimental museum thats opening at sentosa.Heres a small description of how the museum is like:

The Maritime Xperiential Museum will take you back in time to one of the greatest eras in history: It is here that the tale of maritime adventurers, sea pirates, and the growth of sea trade between Asia, the Middle East and Europe is told. The museum provides a fascinating look at the history of the Maritime Silk Route along the Strait of Malacca and Asia's greatest ports and coastal cities from 9th to 19th century, when explorers discovered and opened up trade new maritime routes. The museum's centerpiece is a huge 360-degree multimedia theatre, where visitors "board" an Arabia-bound sailing ship docked near Singapore 1,100 years ago. Laden with cargo, the ship runs into a storm. The sea roars, the skies darken and the ship rolls, pitches and turns. Lights dim as the vessel sinks, with "passengers" also experiencing that sinking feeling as the theatre floor descends. When the lights finally come on, the ship's passengers find themselves in the depths of the ocean, up close with the shipwreck and magnificent marine life. Get ready to set sail with the Maritime Experiential Museum's tales of Asia's legendary seafarers.

WA!like fun ar.So if i get the job, I will be like super fun and interactive!!!!whoo hoo.Not like I will confirm be the museum guide but working at the ticketing counter also seems interesting.hahaha hopefully they call me down for the interview then i can work with Aunt Anggy!!!whoo hoo.bet it will be loads of fun:)))))

Oh and brunch at Food for thought with Jolyn was like AWESOME STUFF.but we ate so much that we almost died.The pancakes are like MAD DELICIOUS LEHHH!!Whip cream,chocolate and banana.But wa everything was Gerlat like one cow...ahahha i dont know how to spell it. For the main course we customized our own breakfast. I had like scrambled egg with cream,sausages,tomato salad,bread and mushrooms.I struggled so hard and forced myself to polish off as much as I could.To make things worst,we had cold chocolate.Poor waistline of mine expanding like free.But i saved money on dinner.haha.After that went to Home club flea.Got myself 4 items for $22?A ring, A polka dotted cardigan(my fav!!!),a pair of shorts and a bag...cool ar,should totally be the next budget barbie...ahahha.Then rushed down to church for SOMY and then went to chill with church peeps;))))))

Going going almost gone:))))BYE!

It's alive again!!!

2011-04-01T08:15:00.000-07:00

I think its really hard to maintain a blog cos now there's facebook and pictures from outings are always uploaded there, so most people know whats going on in your life and its a bit redundant to like double post pictures.But oh wells, with a blog you can always elaborate on how you feel and stuff and you can always rant....I think as i grow older, I get more angsty...and thats when i rant to aunt ANGGY...aahahha....every christmas i wish for a bazooka but i never get it..next christmas i will wish for a bazooka,some missles and a grenade...bruno mars is so not gonna survive all these weapons.

Went job hunting yesterday at far east and so far none of the shop owners have called me back

:((maybe its cos i told them I cant work during the weekends.But everyday from 12-9.30 quite jia lat what...cut my hair today and got my hair treated cos its kinda dry from all the dying....but everyone feels that there isnt much of a difference...no there is leh!!!like 4 inches off!!!wah everytime the hair dresses snip of a tuff of hair,my heart skip 3 beats or something....i keep smelling my hair now cos it smells so good:)))hehhe...some pictures to show the quite distinct difference!!!

Before:

After:

Got la....got difference ok!!Anyways meeting jolyn tomorrow at food for thought for brunch....ok i better wake up on time...everytime we settle for brunch we end up waking up at 3 when its time for tea-_-haha I shall decide on a dress code which is....POLKA DOTS!whoo..and then we shall head down to home club and city plaza for shopping...and not forgetting I am broke....GRR...and then go to church for SOMY!

ahahaha anyways I successfully irritated Jolyn:

J:Sure:)meet where?Which outlet we going?

D:Secret!dont tell u!

J:Eh dont la!hahahah sucker then how i know where to meet?

Looking forward to chalet next week!!!:)))whoo hoo its gonna be soooo exciting but I am kinda worried the toilet and the beds will be dirty...Like i know people drag the pillows and blankets everywhere...omg..the thought of sticky toilets make me cringe....argggggg..I hope the cleaners do a good job by cleaning and mopping the floor!!!and pls change the covers everyday....

Ok praying hard everyday that i can enter NTU...seriously I need God's grace to get me through..cos i know there are thousand of applicants whose art works are so awesome...I believe in miracles though,if it God's plan, even if Picasso applied, I will still get through...Actually I am quite happy with my life right now,kinda carefree and I get to catch up with my dear ones around me...I mean beside for a small hiccup that made me a lil upset..but nah its not worth it and its not gonna change me to a sad/bitter person.I am also happy the way I am so I am not going to change to suit anyone so they will like me more in any way.If you dont like me the way I am, sorry guess I am not the right one for you:))Take it, or Leave it, it's your choice!

My heart stops when you look at me:)

BRUISE LEE

2010-11-07T22:32:00.001-08:00

Why is Celine Dion so freaking awesome?when i hear her voice i get goosebumps all over.

Ok now i wish i were her.wait i also wanna be Britney spears.ARG...i wanna go on a shopping spree now.I miss Thailand:(school is so boring...i came today just to find out whether the teachers approve my idea. Lets see what i have done so far.

1) Hear what mr tan has to say

2)Eat breakfast

3)Try to upload pics on fb but fail

4)Go on fb, 10 minutes later go again..and the cycle goes on

5) Went to cheers to look for 8 days(but cant find it)

6)Buy bubble tea

7)Back in class doing nothing

Sometimes i wish my life was more exciting....both my legs are filled with bruises.My mum is worried i have a blood disorder.ok whatever my whole body is just failing me ever since i am discharged from the hospital...hahah i think i knocked into something but i just cant remember what..ok i may pon school tomorrow:))

UGLY...

Ups and downs

2010-10-30T00:20:00.000-07:00

I feel trapped.

I feel like screaming but no sound seems like coming out of my mouth.

I wanna run away but something is holding me back.

Its like i cant be who i am anymore and the feeling sucks.

It didnt use to be like that last time.Things are always easier said

than done.Running away does not solve the problem, facing it may

also cause repercussions. Its like i am floating in this whirlwind of

emotions and i am leading where the wind blows. Patience is indeed

a virtue and my only prayer is for me to be able to perservere to the end.

On a lighter note, i manage to come up with one company and came up with

an idea for it. But my other company is still yet to be found!haha i shall just lie my way through for the second company then.Anyways, on Tuesday i went to the pines hotel for the prize presentation ceremony. I managed to win a merit award for my chinese tea packaging...haha but i submitted it under the moon cake box category:))))was a lil sad though cos i didnt clinch the Asia award which of course is more prestigious. Butanyhow i thank God for allowing me to win at least an award in this 3 years in NYP.

Its really a good motivation for me to work harder:)))))))oh really everyone

who came to support giraffe, amelia and i:)))))i am really touched when i heard the applause and cheers!!!!there was a lunch reception and the bread was damn

good...ahahaha so stupid to eat bread in a hotel right...

hahaha see the bread next to the soup.WAH nice leh..

Congrats to ame and giraffe who won 2 awards:)))
My 2 best pals!!Thanks KM,LR,Melvin,Ama,Anggy also for coming down to support:)))))

and Faiz for congratulating me:))Congrats to Charis for getting into director's list this sem!
Ok my face quite fat..thats it man gonna smile and act sultry..no more showing teeth

and looking lardy all..

Christmas is coming!!!MY OH MY...that explains the wonderful weather:)))its snuggle worthy..and at the end of november i am gonna be a bridesmaid at my cousins wedding...so i am going to try on my gown/ dress tomorrow...hahah hope i dont burst in it...so excited!!!

my popo so cute, she went to eat at macs because she hope she could the monopoly thing...then she kept asking my mum whether we won anything..AHAHAHA...and guess what she won the one for one tickets at the Singapore flyer!!!kekeke

Sleepy

2010-10-24T19:31:00.000-07:00

I feel tired all the time....like really lerthargic...so i keep sleeping n sleeping but i still dont feel energised..i dont think i am diabetic...cos so far i dont see any ants in the toilet....arggg...i just wanna snuggle under my blanket everyday, not thinking of anything and stripped off of all types of technology...i think i am too addicted to facebook!!so i shall close down my account soon...school is so boring!!!i come to school doing nothing...and i go home doing nothing much also...i wanna work from home!!maybe i should start exercising so i dont feel so sleepy all the time..

things i wanna do:

1)read books and have an extensive vocabulary

2)to not bother and brood over unimportant stuff and people

3)stop biting my nails

4)stop sleeping

All that MATTErs!!!!!!!

2010-10-24T02:47:00.000-07:00

OK i am officially going to start blogging again!!!have been trying a couple of times but kinda failed because i am too lazy to maintain it....hahaha i even made like different accounts from livejournal to tumblr but i end up using this account again...hehehe plus haz helped me with the blogskin already so i might well use it....

yea so its going to be the third week of school....not much progress KEEP ON PROCRASTINATING...its like everytime i wake up from my nap i am like yes man so going to do work!fired up, i can even imagine myself coming up with ideas and drawing out hundreds of them..markers,coloured pens sprawled out on the table!like whoo!but its only a palpable dream...hahaha..i feel that sometimes the more lackadaisical i am about the project, the better i perform...maybe thats why i am trying to let loose.

so today went to church, planned lesson for youth ministry...hahah

i only had 2 members in my grp...so the three of us played some logo drawing game like one of us come up with a logo then we all draw and see which one of us is the closest to the real deal....hahah esther suggested we draw the coffee bean logo, mine ended up looking like tau gay..

ok anyways was talking to jillian about OPI matte nail polish!!its super nice...cos i remembered seeing it on someones face book and i couldnt get the image outta my head!its like ur nails look like silk after applying it!!and they even have suede nail polish....WAH WAH...maybe in the future there will be terri cloth textured nail polish...i have no idea why i am so excited but i just feel the person who thought about it is just ingenius la seriously...its like super unique but not like a sensational idea but yet no one really thought about it until now...and nail polish existed since quite long ago...its like astronauts trying to come out with some special pen that they could write in outer space but realised they wasted shit loads of money when they could use a pencil..kuakua..

wah seriously the dark blue one is so nice!!!arg...i think it will look good on chrissie cause she is so fair....haha anyways the nail polish is called MATTE about u...ok i am going to come up with a few interesting names....ermm...1)the MATTE hatter 2)picnic MATTE 3)MATTEdicine 4)it doesnt MATTEr at all....ahahahahha..

hiaz anyways i realised that once you have a phobia, it sticks with you till old.it even comes back and haunts you sometimes.i have learnt to respect everyones fears because to one it may not seem like a very big thing and sometimes it sounds even ridiculous, but to others, they may be hurting inside because they are reminded of a scar...i never knew why my mum was scared of rats...even until now but maybe cos she may have been bitten when she was younger...haha...but anyways to those who cheered me up not only about the things that happened this week but also when other things happen like angela,melvin,charis,chrissie,li rong,faiz,haz,kai min,eunice, ama,tony,B,amandal,suanny and jillian....THANKS YO...hugs u all tightly till u all burst forth...glad to have friends like u...may u be blessed with many kids in the future and also may u drive a big car and stay in a condo..

i leave u with a picture of suede nail polish...ARGGGGGG...so nice!looks a bit like u have some road on ur fingers...but its still nice lore!!shall buy it online since its cheaper...its so ex leh $25 for a bottle....like throwing one dress away like that...(and yes my currency is still dresses)

LIFE.

2010-01-29T04:31:00.000-08:00

hey thanks all who encouraged/ sms me to check how i was doing..really appreciate it alot...

school is really damn crazy...FINALLY THE STUPID BUSINESS PRESENTATION HAS ENDED...wah it was so painful doing it...like seriously there were things that tested my patience, ideas that couldnt seem to work out...it was like some never ending report.....whoo hoo burn the stupid business booklet!!!!!side track( ANGELINA JOLIE AND BRAD PITT IS SPLITTING...WHOO HOO!OMG YES FINALLY..MUAHAHA) I AM SO MEAN BUT ANGELINA IS JUST SOOO....EEEE..she snatched brad away from jennifer...

so coffee table book is done too...but i was kinda disappointed about the finishing...overall i really liked it a lot but the finishing can be improved..i dont wanna redo it....no point spending another sum of money...plus i tried to be as meticulous as possible....redid my concept like a billion times...

i guess i am loving VC00801 more and more each day..heheh thanks, u guys have been very patient with me when i squeal and whine..i didnt know i was whiny until faiz told me...i was asking him whether he liked whiny girls and he said no...so i asked him whether i was whiny and he said ya la..ahahahha and it was like an effortless reply..like dionne hoe shu min= whiny...

but he said other girls are worst then me...i guess i become whiny when i panick...and by the way

I FOUND MY HEARTS SCRUNCHY LEH....u know i was so happy i wanted to throw a mini party..its like the prodigal son....his father embraced him with open arms...and i did that to my scrunchy..WHOO HOO...i know the word anal is a very strong word but i am very anal when it comes to my pocession..i hate it when i goes missing, destroyed when someone doesnt take care of it....guess what???top shop has sheer heart legging again..gonna get my hand on those...kekeke....I HEARTS HEARTS...

i kept sleeping today...how how gonna stay up and do work....submission for retail falls on my bd!!whoo hoo i think i may be able to celebrate it and not do work on that day..anyways i think i am getting fatter..and i am so pissed...i thought by being under a lot of stress i will be able to lose weight..but NO...i wish my thighs were smaller, i wish i had slimmer arms and a flatter tummy...bleah to weight issues...

there are many things on my mind....i dont really know how to express myself because its kinda sensitive and i dont wanna screw things up...anyways some things are meant to be...some people get everything effortlessly dont they...while some have to work so hard for things to happen...hiaz..

i wish i could escape to somewhere where things around me would stop moving so quickly,

i wish i could go to a place where i could sleep and all my problems would disappear...

i wish i could go to a place where no one would judge...i wish i wish i wish

why do i like sleeping so much?simply because there isnt pain and heartaches in dreams..

2010-01-17T03:48:00.000-08:00

ok i seriously cant find anything to smile about....

school is really killing me....i dont know why...

its like i have never been so burnt out throughout

my 1 and a half years in poly...i have been waking up

in the middle of the night sweating profusely, and

worrying about assignments which i have completed

and not completed....mum, nagging incessantly over

the smallest of things..she is really making things a lot

worst for me...sometimes i dont dare tell her anything

for fear that she will start screaming and then i get more

pressurized...i find myself engulfed with fear in the middle

of the night as i do my work...feeling empty inside me..suddenly my

mind blanks out and i dont know what to do....

my mum was the one who wants me to go to poly, however time and again

i know that deep inside she wished so badly that i was in JC instead.....its so obvious

from the way she speaks...she asked me how this person did for O levels and when i told

her she said wow look at how smart the person, unlike u, ur life is a mess, i dont know

what u are doing...

lets go back to the main reason why i am stressed..maybe its because i know that

i am not too bright therefore since i am blessed with a skill, i am trying to major in

it and do my best, maybe because i am trying to pick myself up and prove to myself

that i can do something in life, maybe because compared to others, i dont have it easy.

actually i am sick and tired of what my mum thinks anymore...i shouldnt care and just

take pride in what i am doing...after all its my future...

shut up just shut up.

CAN

2009-12-07T21:52:00.000-08:00

hey hey....

i am so bored in class...there is really nothing much to do..

i feel like going to orchard road to check if the top shop

leggings are avail...hehehe..anyways i am so happy i went for youth camp!

haha screw the work...i think the youths are in YM are getting really sweet

and it really encouraging to see them grow and mature..its really motivates me

to be a better leader to them..:)i love the youths so much:)

and my group won..finally after 3 years...

one of the sweetest and most caring groups in the world.....

forever i am chanting we will win the war but we never did....i love all the skits on the

last day..its really super funny...anyways i regret not joining drama club or something...

i miss being a leader:(i enjoy coming up with cheers and getting everyone excited...

and u know on the day when i led worship,i realised that i forgot the slides...

super freaked out girl was me...and then my voice was like so rough...thank God

everything turned out quite fine...hiaz..i will never ever let this happen again..

Breast is flying of to australia today..hiaz i will miss her for 2 weeks..OH MAN...

then when she comes back its my turn to fly off...ALL THESE ALL THESE....

haha since i dont have much pictures of the camp and all..i shall post some camwhoring

pics in class..

YO YO we are in the house yo........
ok the last pic is just scary..haha i dont know what i was doing..ama and nat are just cute

haha ok i know i am so gross...eyes brown,hair brown, skin also brown.

i should be charlie BROWN..ahaha i think i am funny.can.

3 years ago, during this period of time

you came into my life

my days couldnt get any happier..

everything around me felt magical

you showed me what love is

thanks for the memories

I AM MRS JACOB BLACK

2009-11-28T09:22:00.000-08:00

Random code for the day: I HAVE A FILLING!sing to the tune of the black eye peas song(i went to fill my tooth cavities today)heheheh

dont you just love my pun..anyways so much drama happened in the morning i should just be an actress...wah but anyways thank God so so much....ok so heres the story....i went to the dentist and after my treatment i had to pay...then i realised that the 100 dollars my mum gave me was in the envelop which i gave to the nurse earlier...PANIC PANIC PANIC...so i asked the nurse if she kept it and she said she threw it away...so i asked her to search the dustbin and she said that the rubbish aunty just emptied all the rubbish bins....i swore my life flashed past me...suddenly my head kept spinning and i felt this gapping hole in my heart..at that moment i knew nothing could patch it back...it shattered into a myraid of splinters...i was taking long deep breaths...NOO....dont leave me 100 dollars...AHAHAHA i act new moon...that was how moppy the book was but i still like it..

anyways seriously i was damn scared because $100 is really not a small deal..can u imagine all the dresses one can buy..not me but generally...i know my mum would scream at me and i prob have to eat stones because i wont get allowance..and i also have to drink dew from the leaves...then luckily one of the helpful nurses spotted some rubbish bags at the corner and asked me to rumage through it...so i did reluctantly..then i was kinda transfixed with fear so i was still a little blur and all...then i didnt know how to search the trash bags...so i squat down and just look at the rubbish...then the nurse was like :

"aiya i help u la..u cannot so slow u know!!"

haha i wanted to say sorry i princess...ahaha no la i didnt say that ok...i was just a bit disgusted because like all the rubbish mixed together so there were pads and all..OMGGGGGG...but lucky i wore gloves..

money flying away...

so i didnt do much searching....i just help open the bag bigger...then the aunty nurse was damn nice la...she was like girl dont give up hope, can find one...then dig dig dig and then she found a letter..but it wasnt mind...then she searched more and OMG WE FOUND MY LETTER!!!ARRRR. AND THEN WITH SHAKEY HANDS I OPENED IT AND FOUND $100 ENCLOSED IN THE LETTER....!!i was so happy i nearly exploded with expletives...ahaha but i am unvulgar girl so i didnt...

then the nurse and i screamed....we were like "whoo!!!!!!"...omg shes so cute right the nurse...then we kept laughing after that and she beat my arm with the letter..i was like ew ew ew please do not do that..but never mind la...she helped me so much i better shut up and be grateful..i think she was GOD'S ANGEL..ahahaha...after that i thanked her profusely and went to the counter to pay...

then the nurse at the counter was like aiyo girl dont do this again..then she was like how old are u...i was too embarrassed to tell her my actual age so i said very old...HEHEHE...i swear that if my mum was the nurse...she will scream so damn loud that all those people with tooth ache will drop all their teeth...dentist dont have to extract it..wah thank GOD...

so after all the drama...i met up with mum and russ..we went to illuma..love that place..i know everyone hates it but neevr mind, i am special, i like it...mum wanted to treat us to mahatthan fish market..we had dory fillet..its the bomb man...then we went exploring the illuminating shopping centre...the highest level were all arcade games... i saw this claw machine with super cute toys ..you know how hugh jackman explode with abs right, ya it was exploding with cuteness..disney characters with flat features...haha look like me..my nose like mushroom i

know...so i decided to try my luck..or rathered i pressured russ to help me...we were aiming for a dumbo soft toy...then after 4 tries, we didnt get it..i was apprehensive as to whether i should spend more money on it because we were damn close, like just a nudge and the toy would be in my hands..MUAHHAHA...

so as i was debating whether or not i should play..this not so skinny girl went to play leh...OMG...my life flashed past me again...then with a simple nudged, the toy fell into the hole.....I SCREAMED DAMN LOUD and she smiled at me...fine la so now show off all...i was so mad i kept punching russ..hehehe...then i went to top up my card...and before we played, the toy arranger dude went to rearrange more soft toys so i thick skin went to ask him to put the elephant at the corner..ahaha and he did leh!!so nice..and guess what I GOT THE DUMBO TOY..WHOO HOO...then since we had 4 more dollars, we tried again and russ got a bunny for me...and then i got so excited i wanted to try my luck for the last time...i wanted the baby dumbo so much..because it was so adorable and i couldnt take my eyes off it..

ok at this period of time i got so shameless...i approached toy arranger dude..he was so free anyway...i asked him to arrange the toys..wah he fun fair throw all the toys to my side and then i asked him to put the baby dumbo at the corner.AHAHAHA.so gross i am..and he did leh..maybe he secretly likes me..kua kua joking....and so with a simple push! I GOT THE TOY....haha some guys nearby helped russ and i...gave us some advice as to how to position the toy...wah i get one toy, whole world help us...yup so thats how i ended up with 3 toys..

hahaa...i should be claw machine spokes person...i will pose with the soft toys in my arms...or maybe i can burst forth from a pile of toys...good idea right...when i have a boyfriend i will force him to win one whole set for me..and if he doesnt i will pout and scream..ook joking..no one wanna date me now...

awww man....so cute right....guess which one is my fav..guess!!!

my very first win..ahaha stupid not so skinny girl..in ur face

my favourite...so cute..baby dumbo:)

met up with my favourite people on wednesday,...their As are gonna be over soon!!!omg then they have 8 months holiday..they can give birth to a kid la..hiaz and i still have school...bleah...i think i love them more and more everytime i meet up with them..anyways shall blog about it another day...i had so much fun chilling with them..eve came too..stupid maths partner.love her so much....hope u have a happy day today:)

OMGGG...omggg.OMGGG...bursting forth with abs...TEAM JACOB FTW..

2009-11-18T22:41:00.000-08:00

Random code for the day: I have this sudden urge to stand up in class and scream at the teacher and ask her to stop talking!

i am so sad everyone....i tore my brand new pretty leggings from top shop...i wanna cry...its so pretty and its 20 bucks and i dont wanna spend another 20 buying a new pair!!!!!grrr....i wanted to pull it up then suddenly ripped!!!then when i pulled it a bit higher, then rip like no mother lehhh!!!!how.....can anyone donate to the dionne-needs-new-leggings- fund??hahhaa it has hearts all over...

hiaz its freezing in school you know...i feel like transforming into a polar bear..but i wanna be a clean white one...lessons are seriously very boring...like DEAD BORING....watching paint dry, watching a monk's hair grow is wayyy more interesting....i realised that i dont really look like a design student..i dont really dress like one and neither does my blog look designerish too..

MY GRANDFATHER HAS A SMELLY HEAD

2009-11-16T20:12:00.000-08:00

random code for the day: ARE YOU STYLO MILO OR SCARY MARY....

haha i am gonna have a random code for the day everytime i blog..anyways cows are done!!!YAY!wah trace like no siblings, no parents, no life no dresses...but i had loads of fun doing it..it wasnt like grrrr i hate the project i wanna end it in no time kinda thing....i think everyone's cows in class were very unique and different..

i love smelling my pillow...speaking about pillows..i remembered the time when i was jumping on my gong gongs bed then my face landed in his pillow...OMG...suddenly i lost my sense of smell for like 20 minutes...seriously u know i love my gongs but his pillow really stinks to the high heavens..when i told my popo right she said if u ever throw his pillow into the sea, all the fishes will die..i can picture the image in my mind...wahhh it was really bad!!i swear i did a backflip...haha if anyone faints right..let me know..i will come to their rescue using jolter 67!just place the pillow on the faintee's face and viola!he/she wakes up in one sec!TRY IT!IT WORKS...

oh and yesterday in class during camera packaging class dont know what isit called....Chrissie saw something on my thigh and she was like is that a love bite...haha honestly a love bite there is just werid...then mr kwok came and said what isit that i heard about love bites..haha nosey parker..so i said CHRISSIE WANNA GIVE U A LOVE BITE...ahahhaa he kinda laughed..oh wells he can be very easiy bullied....

just wanna tell you that i won tickets to 2012!!!WHOO!!watched it last wednesday during the gala preview..i won by calling in to 987..had the feeling my call will go through...and when the muttons picked up i went :OMGOMGOMG!!then they also went omgomg omg.ahahhahaha..so they asked me a question which was what would you bring along in the year 2012..i said baby photos..ahaha..i cant think of anything else to bring..i mean if u bring ur ipod, it will die eventually right..then what use it as paper weight?electronic gadgets will die over they dont get charged and all right..so i thought since u cant ever take ur baby pictures again u might as well bring it with you...and when u look at them and imagine how hard was it for ur mum to give birth to u, u will fight hard for ur exsistence..makes sense??i think it does...hhahaha..the show was great, watched it with jolyn..cried a few times when families ahd to hug and perish together..

how will u wanna die??i dont wanna drown..the feeling sucks..i prefer immediate painless death leh..how ar....choke on sweet?also pain...suffocated in a sea of cotton wool?also sian..aiya dont know...maybe i wont die, i will be the hot survivors..whoo hoo and when the world is in turmoil, i will rush into dress shops and steal all the dresses...

by the way i got my brown contacts, my mum thinks i look scary like a porcelain doll..hahaha and i realise people tend to stare more into my eyes when they talk to me..its funny...see ya~

my mum is irritating

2009-10-28T07:35:00.000-07:00

wah i am super irritated with my mum ok..scolding me for getting brown contact lens and she say it will be the last time getting coloured ones for me..she thinks that wearing contacts is a sign of rebellion...whatever ok whatever...not like i am wearing red or blue why must she make such a big fuss out of it...so if americans who have blue eyes wear black contacts they are rebelling too la...wanna be gothic isit...seriously she comes up with the dumbest logic in the world...I AM GOING TO WEAR WHITE CONTACTS AND SCARE HER ONE DAY...

EYE EYE CAPTAIN

2009-10-27T06:43:00.000-07:00

HAHHA UPDATE GIRL IS ME...ok nothing much happened in school..honestly i can just change my name to dionne eats a lot in school hoe shu min...wah..feasting dionne is me can...i feel like i am munching 24/7 and going to the toilet 24/7 also..ahahah...ok i think the toilet count today was 3...ok la not too bad..i realise that sometimes i dont even go to the toilet..ahaha..ok sorry for sharing all these nonsense...wah ms lee's lesson was a super waste of time leh...honestly...i could have watched growing up and know what was happening between GARY AND GIRLFRIEND...wahhh angry...anyways gary is getting better looking as the days go by...chrissis says so also...

finished 14 cows...hope they are acceptable and that my ideas wont clash with my other pals...today is super random day...like any other day on my planet..i was thinking of what i wanna be when i grow up..this time its for real..no more like wanna be a princess or fairy..ahhaa..so here is my list:

1)own my own shop(maybe like a beauty palour that offer affordable services)

maybe manicure for students can be priced at $6??ahaha

2) wedding planner...omg u dont know how much i loveeee weddings..they are such happy occasions and i so wanna be a part of it!!oh u know i attended my cousin's wedding recently..and from then on i am set on having a wedding of my own..its so sweet having an occasion that marks the start of two people spending their lives together....and i get to be the princess for the day..YAY...okok getting carried away...

3)designer..haha why didnt i put this as my first choice you ask..or maybe u dont even question..but hiaz...i dont know if i really like design that much you know....i dont really have a certain style..besides everything being pink and cute kinda thing...and i cant come up with good ideas al the time..so oh wellers...

4)be a tai tai...ahahhahaha dont think it will happen..but if it does i will volunteer at the parent support team..or maybe play majong everyday...

5) be a teacher...i feel that i may be able to do this well...i can tell my class jokes everyday..

oh wells thats all my career options for now...oh i bought double eye lid stickers!!!haha i am going to stick them when i reach home after school and sleep with them until the next morning..my popo say that if u do that religiously, they will appear on their own..honestly whats the point of hidden double eye lids....haha its like hiding ur hair under ur scalp or something..hehhehe..and oooo i may be getting brown contacts..one day i just woke up and had this sudden urge to get them..hhaha ok whats with me trying to beautify my eyes....

but u know,,ur eyes are the windows to ur soul ok..and an eye for an eye makes the world go blind...do you know that anot..ahahaha..ok sorry for irritating you...going to close my eyes..bye!

the chances are so slim but i hope you feel the same way too:)

HELLO WORLD

2009-10-26T09:51:00.000-07:00

hahahaha..best havent blogged a decent post since dont know when..anyways i have this sudden urge to just write down my thoughts... so its a week since school reopened..ok la to tell you the truth i am quite loving it...can catch up with class mates, annoy and irritate charis and chrissie...not like i dont irritate the rest of the class..hahaha...but u know i am feeling the bond...hehe...anyways charis and chrissie should totally attach a toilet bowl to their butts or something..ok sorry that i sound rude and crude and its not personal u two best pals...but its like the amount of times they go to the toilet is like the amount of times i blink in a day..ahah ok i exaggerate but like maybe 6 times in a day..aiyooo...then when they tell me they wanna go to the toilet i give them the wa lau dont la face...i think the toilet bowl can like tell who they are already.can detect them....haha i am secretly keeping count like between both of them who visits the toilet more frequently..maybe i will award the winner with bladder controlling pills..ahahha...

OKOK CHARIS AN CHRISSIE I STILL LOVE U GUYS LOADSS....REALLLY...

besides all the lavatory stories..wah wah see pro u know substitute with bombastic term...well we have a photojournalism project...i am torn between 2 topics...either a parrot astrologer or the skinny like hell anorexic i think gong gong who like hula hoop with big beads...the latter is a super friendly man...wah he is so nice i dont think he minds if i follow him home..he probably ask me to stay for dinner and also sew me new clothes..ahahaha...and then the indian fortune teller cant speak english leh...hiaz language barrier is a problem..haha natalie has agreed to help me translate..eh natalie if u are reading this u should be in the movie TRANSLATOR...transformer sequel..ahaha..hiya..never mind i follow both guys see which one nicer....anyways if u wanna follow me around and take pics let me know man, let me know...then we can dance and groove to the beat of the indian songs...haha thats what i did last week....

then we have a moove media projet..u guessed it right, its the cows u see on the fields of emptiness....so we must come up with 5 designs..i came up with 5 so far but i am planning to do at least 1o..so i have more choices..and we are working with the year 3 seniors..haha my senior is a guy and he has to work with 3 girls..hes like some foreign body dancer..YOYOYO HE IS IN THE HOUSE YO...ok whateever..he seems cool and reminds me of desmond my cousin..yup so had some brainstorming session with the senior(yoyoyo), chrissie and haz..hahah..quite fun i was thinking of puns...ohh maybe i can do a COWard...hehehe...but i settled for singapore COWture and like i am drawing things that represent singapore...

so oh wells i am going to RAPE THIS TERM..ahaha i dont mean it literally..but u know wanna do my best and conquer it...its time for me to stop slacking and being a fat lard...

hiaz u know i was reflecting on my life and all..i realised that i am actually quite a simple girl..as in like i kinda like the safe and straight route...i am kinda sheltered, i dont really like leaving the safety zone...but i do like the way i am...even though i am simple i dont think my life is boring..and i dont hope the people around me think of me that way..haha...even though i dont club or drink, i dont think i am missing the greater things in life..not that clubbing or drinking is even bad, its just that i prefer watching disney..haha i mean one day i will definitely go clubbing but just not now....the world out there is scary..and i know it...but i think being true to urself is very important...there is no point hiding just to impress people...sometimes i grumble about my life, i wished i was prettier, i wish i had more things...but honestly, i think i need to learn how to be thankful i am not handicapped, i have loving parents, i have a house even though i dont get lost in it....its time for me to stop being so selfish, i need to learn to love others more than myself...

anyways i had the most random dream that russ passed away..U KNOW I SOBBED LIKE MAD...when i woke up my whole face was just soaking wet ok...i couldnt stop..hha...Russ is one person that means the world to me..i mean my whole family does...but honestly no one else can ever replace a brother like him....and u know the bizzare thing was that my mum gave birth to triplets in the dream and they looked like russ..and then as i changed their diapers, i talked to them and told them how much they looked like russ and that i am really upset because i didnt get a chance to tell him how much i love him before he was gone..WAH MAJOR SADDNESS...its just a stupid nightmare and it will NEVER COME true..yes it will never...and i will kill to protect russ i swear...haha writing this down so that i wont take my bro for granted...

okok wah late already i gtg sleep...i love everyone!!!hahaha....and P.S do u think people actually still read this space?

2009-10-21T06:34:00.000-07:00

Theres no one else to blame except myself...

doesnt seem like a big thing, but sadly i cant seem to accept it.

i am trying to brush the feeling off...but its not working.

the thing that keeps me going, that let me believe that

what i have is real...gone..the days ahead just seems so bleak.

its so hard to keep going now...time will heal it, but its

still going to hurt when it heals.WHY?

I WANNA BE A FAIRY

2009-09-25T01:23:00.000-07:00

yo...hahah today i did the most random thing...i decided that i wanna learn to sing like leona lewis, so i went to find a you tube video and the lyrics of better in time and tried singing it...haha major failure is me...the song is quite difficult to sing...its like at some parts i had to rush through the lyrics and i had a hard time projecting my voice properly...aiyoo i really admire all this singers with power vocals...haha..luckily didnt sign up for singapore idol...

and i realise school is like starting in 3 weeks...OMGG.....hiaz but i have a wedding to look forward to...and christmas is so coming!!!!!!!!wheee..i love the magical feeling that lingers when christmas is approaching...i wanna be a fairy...bye!

EH BOOMER AT THE BACK!!!!!!!L4D ITS NOW OR NEVER...

2009-09-23T03:37:00.000-07:00

HEYYYYYYYYYYY.....hahah i think i havent blogged for a month??anyways i am changing my super boring blogskin...hopefully this time the font will be big so even the blind can see it!anyways..lets summarize what has happened in my life so far in the past month....

eh thats me leh..when i was 3...haha i know its random but cute not..

worked at IT fair...stood up for 12 hours everyday....lips crack, look gross.....talk and talk but only managed to sell an average of 18 mp3s a day...commission is so good that it motivates me to work so hard...like $1.50 per mp3...WHOO I CAN BUY 15 FISHBALLS!!!

went for YMLC...young methodist leaders conference..made new hot friends.hahah...spent time with God....caught up with TRACKERS dudes and dudettes....met pastor reuben who is always so cute....wah pulai springs resort is seriously very beautiful....the rooms are really good..seriously...wanted to sleep at the golf course at night so i could be closer to nature but ronda said i might get rape....didnt wanna lose my virginity so took precautions and went back to my room to sleep...

watched true blood...chrissie recommended it to me..OMG.....i really want a vampire boyfriend you know...really really really but if he wants to suck my blood please knock me out first like put me under anasthesia...no need for all these pain...WAH the vampires are super hot and like protective and quite romantic if you get the good ones like bill....hahah but a lot of blood was shed during the show and my hands turned weak whenever i watched the bloody scenes.....and the next season comes out like only next year....NOOOOO...if anyone knows where to get the calendar let me know ok:)

TRUE BLOOD OK NOT FAKE BLOOD...

My Husband..looks like a helpless lamb..but NO!

Boyfriend

WAH SUPER CUTEE!!..thats eric the super model vampire..

Celebrated birthdays like as though it was my birthday..hehe..Renee and Jared had 2 celebrations each and i attended all..so 4 celebrations in a week...eat and eat and eat..good example of being skinny is soooo me i tell you..but i love catching up with friends:)hehe drank beer by the bay...isit bay??i kept telling myself that i wont get drunk..i think it helps....played wii at hern tong's house during jareds party....haha the girls OWNED the boys..i shook so violently that my arms ache like free and knees were super bruised...i am naming my knees BRUISED lee....hahaha..funny not??i dont care i insist its funny..you better laugh

PLAYED L4D TWICE IN A ROW!!!whoo..love that game..after playing L4D i felt like shooting everything in the way..hehhe...hahah the girls are the only ones screaming in the lan shop...oh i thought of setting up a L4D blogshop..cool not...can make l4d earrings and plush toys..maybe like a zoey plushtoy and when u press a button it says: I think its so unfair that i am the only girl in L4D....haha tony and i were joking that she has the burden of starting a nation...and i can also print T-shirts that say: boomer at the back!!!! OR maybe even a catchy phrase like:THE OFF BUTTON YOU WILL SWITCH FOR ITS THE WITCH!!!!wah cool not..or corny phrases like:in L4D there is no such things as squirrells but HUNTERS....ahahahahahhahaha..i am starting to enjoy this...:)

whoo look at hot zoey!!

zai is them

LEFT 4 DEAD 2...love the catch phrase...its like i love the rain because it covers my tears..

results were out today...they were better than what i expected i guess...but not super good also...Thank God for being so merciful and generous....applied to work at etude house but they didnt call back..hiaz the uniforms are so pink and frilly anyways..dont know if i dare to wear them...and i am super in love with body con dresses:0haha i am so gonna get this one i saw online...but i am monitoring the prices....eh $27 is quite ex leh...thats the commission i get in a day for all the mp4s sold...ARRRR..!!!!

and i think i can lose weight from doing housework....wah the vaccum cleaner is so heavy you know...it carries me, instead of me carrying it....then keep squeezing all the water out from the mop...train muscles...even my muscles have muscles....

BLEAH....i dont want school to start...NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooooooo...anyways happy holidays to poly people and study hard for As and a the different types of exams MOE have placed in different stages of everyones life!!!

cant help but wonder if i have fallen for you.....

GOODBYE MY LOVER!GOODBYE MY FRIENDS...

2009-09-04T05:00:00.000-07:00

AWWWW....so cute righties..i love the caption!!!i has a corm..aahahahaha

nothing much happened over the past few days...oh ya cycling gang came over to watch the haunting at conneticut...hahaha i was so hum ji, screamed at everything..haha and i learnt not to sit next to tony when watching a horror film.....super scared boy is him..

i love lazing around like how a lazer of lazidom lazes....gr....anyways i am going to malaysia for YMLC from tomorrow till monday!!!super excited.....hehe and i am going to share a room with jolyn!!!so see ya when i see ya!!!

2009-08-30T11:09:00.000-07:00

AIYYAAAA.....i totally cannot sleep can....

because my grandmother snores like darth vadar..i know i am super mean but really...

and then russ talks in his sleep..and he kinda mumbles and all...i super cannot make out

the words...he sounds like R2D2....my mum says i can be princess leia because i like to spoil myself..ok seriously how can one spoil oneself....yeah so my family is like stars wars.....

hiazz..sometimes i really want a room to call my own...but its not nice la to like not share a room with my grandmother...i feel kinda bad...however sometimes i need my own privacy!!!and if i move to russ' room i cant switch on the air conditioner...arggg and i cant survive without air con..the last time it broke down when i was in sec 1, i cried.ahahaha but u know i am like super emotional and all.....

oh no....i really dont know what to do now...how does my mum out up with my dad's snoring...i dont want to think about the future and how i will put up with my husband's snoring...i prob fire a bazzoka at him ok..or pour cold water to wake him up..ahahah...

AT GUARDIAN WE CARE...

2009-08-28T08:19:00.000-07:00

AT GUARDIAN, WE CARE......

ahahahhaha...i like that jingle.....

anyways, met up with jolyn for dinner and dessert...finally we managed to sit down, do some heart to heart talk, crap all....we ate spicy kang kong and sting ray with rice at newton, the aunty was so nice la, she didnt charge us for the rice...and seriously it was like kang kong moutain can.....SPAM KK!!!(which is kang kong btw)...burst with kang kong is us.....then after that we went to udders for ice cream...and jolyn painted my nails there...hahah how dumb right....manicure session at ice cream palour....the scoopers there werent that happy i think..anyways we ordered pear ice cream and this snickers, mars anyhow tamaleh flavour...haha the tamaleh flavoured one was nice...but the pear ice cream was so gooey and so pearish..omgosh...oh talking about ice cream i am going for a job interview at ben and jerry's!!!!haha hopefully i get in man....the IT people hasnt contacted me yet...and oh YMLC is coming...i am so excited...going to share a room with jolyn and i will be able to catch up with kheng hao, ronda, wanlin, keith chain and i dont know whoo...wheee..and oh i managed to jog 4 times this week...haha not bad eh..hopefully i will be able to jog on sunday....i really wanna lose 3 kg this holiday....i am way too flabby at my thighs...and tummy area..eww...gross...

so now i am going to SPAM P(which is photographs in short)ahahah i like inventing my own short forms..guess what is mjp + m??? give up???it stands for majong paper and markers....ahahaha..

hahah we are trying to do the xi nu ai le face....not bad right..hhah we took like

a gazillion photos because i keep mixing up the expressions....

your grandmother and grandfather

P.S i know it looks like i wear the colourful top all day.aahahha but it so happens that when i take photos, i wear that..:)

2009-08-27T00:05:00.000-07:00

Watching "growing up" on channel 5..haha its one of my favourite shows when i was young...i think gary is so charming...so ah bengish on the outside but yet so kind and sentimental...haha but sometimes he can be quite jealous and mean..oh ya i casually mentioned about the flicking sweat guy yesterday right, well i dont understand why he wanna run half naked..i mean its not wrong but i would advise him to maybe wear a thin white singlet or something if he feels that its really humid...plus half naked man runs real quickly so whenever he run pasts me, i will feel like drips on water on my cheek or even on my arm....OMGGGG.....and i tried changing lane already lore...but his sweat attacks seems to come from left, right, centre, back...arrr....i need a sweat deflection device.....anyways even though i am quite bored during the hols i prefer this boredom compared to the hectic life when the school term starts...hahaha sleeping till 2 is the life man!!!!!hehehe esp during rainy days like today...

p.s i hit my lip with my mac book and now its all swollen and gross like during OBS!!!!

OF BOWLING AND SWEAT FLICKERS

2009-08-26T02:11:00.000-07:00

YOOO....just came back from like some job interview...can the place get any more remote than a remote control!!!!its like some back alley...and the place is like some smokey mountain lehhh...like all the man inside smoke and its air conditioned..i can hardly breathe properly..how can they survive staying so long.....poor lungs...yea and amandal told me that the place was a bit intimidating with guys and all so i was so scared i wore a black dress..tried to cover as much as possible...hahah...i will only know the results whether i got the job on friday..wish me luck ok!!!

the boss of the company i think like asked me how i would promote the camera i was selling even though it was of a higher price compared to other 2 brands....so i said i would tell the customer to invest more because of the better quality our cameras have in comparision to like buying a cheaper camera but end up having to purchase another within a year because of its poor quality...and then i said if u want something good u have to pay a price..and he said he got my drift but he wants to see how i can turn the situation to benefit myself..so he advised me to show a break down of the price to the customer and tell me to use the price and divide it among the amount of years the camera can serve and he said that its like u are paying 98 cents a day for the camera..and i nodded and smiled..haha...i wonder why he asked me that when he asked other people simplier questions like what electronic products are you confident in promoting..

hiaz anyways throughout the whole interview i just kept smiling and nodding my head..haha..oh wells...

anyways i had so much fun with half of the class from VC0801!!!!!!!WHOOO...bowling was sooo much fun with the girls..i mean i suck at bowling so whatever..but i had a great time crapping and laughing with ama, charis, chrissie, eunice,aisyah,haz, and lirong...and then aisyah and i or rather aisyah came out with something stupid that the both of us should release our bowling balls at the same time....haha i ended up laughing so much, i couldnt release the ball properly...and our balls ended up in the longkang..hehe how dumb..

Dont mess with the best..ahahhaha ya right

and after that, we met up with hazwan, kais min, faiz, dass ,jaddul, nat and nick for dinner at lau pa sat cum birthday celebration for faiz...then we went to some place around the esplanade i think to celebrate faiz's birthday...and took gazillion pictures...haha the girls took jump shots...act high school musical..we started screaming whenever we jumped...and i think the guys werent that interested in jumping..

Happy Birthday Kung Fu Panda..hope the royal chocolate cake made you feel like a king for the day...

HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL..WHEE!!!!!!wah aisyah spilt girl is you!

I kena punched....

Bleah....hehehe i look like a chee kuey

after that we went to chill for a while and we played charades...haha i had to act out the movie title what jack and meree make a porno...er...so for the word porno i tried to show the action of taking off clothes..ok whatever..but in the end chrissie got it right...haha..the guys were hilarious when it was their time to act...i didnt really understand what they were trying to do but i laughed alot...so yea thats about it..haha oh yea i dont mind opening my house next week to u guys who wanna play wii so let me know when u wanna come over k:)

p.s... joggers should put a shirt on and not jog half naked..aiyo this guy was flicking his sweat everywhere and i kena some on my cheek...EWWWWW....

I LOVE YOU PINK PHONE!

2009-08-22T05:18:00.001-07:00

Okay....my blog is dead....like how i am feeling right now...dead bored...haha..i dont really see the big connection..i just wanted to link words together...GRRR...why cant poly holidays be the same as JC's holiday...its like it hardly coincide at all....when i can relax like now, all the poor A level takers are like slogging their guts out...and soon when they have their 8 month holiday(which is almost the same as the human gestation period and they prob can get pregnant and give birth to a kid) its the mad rush for me all over again...and when i get into their christmas mood, i have to snap out of it real soon again..what the...hiaz...so far a week of holidays have passed and i havent done anything much....3/5 of the cycling gang has exams and army,1/5 which is olivia has to work...so that leaves only me...a fat slob who does almost nothing at home but watch WIZARDS OF WAVERLY PLACE and online shop without purchasing anything since i am not so rich...i decided to start reading, so i borrowed 3 gossip girl books and a sweet valley high book..wah i remembered that i was super crazy over sweet valley books...

ANYWAYS I DECLARE THAT I AM GOING TO GET MARRIED IN DISNEYLAND.whoo!!!i love all things disney....and i am going to save up to my wedding by maybe working in disneyland...by being jasmine....and i am going to walk around taking pictures with little children who really thinks i am jasmine from the cartoon.cool eh..and whatever i have learnt in poly will all go down the drain...maybe i could use a bit of knowledge from colour studies to spruce up the look of my outfit....maybe bling it up so it wont look over turquoise..or maybe rip some parts up...disney just rock big time...i have been listening to the songs since i was 3..singing it everyday since 4....haha almost everything in my house has to do with disney..cups, blankets, bottles....and oh if u are bored...go watch wizards of waverly place...justin russo played by david henry is major eye candy...his body is like so toned...even when he wears a normal jacket, you can see all his muscles...haha i didnt mean to pay attention to that, it just appears to me that way..sidetrack:maybe my husband can be the guy who dresses up as aladdin and walk around...you never know..everything in life is unpredictabe......

and oh!i got my new phone!!!but i am still quite sad over the death of my ex phone...it was so pink and the patterns were so delicate...its like my super ideal phone!!!i remembered that time it was on promotion, i had to keep pestering my parents to get it for me..and when i finally got it and held it in my hands,the feeling was like no other....i think the phone glowed..ok it also glowed when someone i liked a lot called me..ahah but thats another story...well..i guess my ex phone brought back a lot of memories. Like during that period when i got it, i was messaging a particular person alot and i get so excited whenever the phone rang because i knew it was him...haha and i super love my ringtone..you know rule the world by take that..yea tha is going to be my wedding march in song too...hiaz...and after 4 years it had to die on me...i was so upset la...why why why...so now i shall dedicate a poem to my beloved ex phone......here it goes:

Pink phone oh pink phone,

i am so sorry i worked you to the bone.

You were there for me always,

even when i was licking an ice cream cone.

Pink phone oh pink phone,

i loved you so dearly,

even on days when my hair was not so curly.

pink phone oh pink phone,

in my heart forever you will stay,

and i will love you till my dying day.

even though now we must part,

because you dont function and

make it to the cut,

i still see you when my eyes are shut.

Pink phone oh pink phone,

nothing can replace you,

even the cute baby seals at the zoo.

the memories we have together

will always stay with me,

and they are so beautiful like

dolphins in the sea..

I LOVE YOU PINK PHONE!

hahah yea and as usual, i blinged up my new phone...hehe

2009-08-19T06:03:00.000-07:00

heyyyy.... haha siao today i woke up at 2.45...i slept like so soundly, i dont even remember waking up to go to the toilet...hhaha slept at 4 plus the previous night..haha waking up late in the afternoon gives me a reason to skip lunch...and i wont keep thinking of eating..went jogging today, managed to conquer 10 rounds around the track...but today was quite bad...i had to kept pushing myself. felt super tired and my body did not want to go on...i even had to sit and rest because i was so exhausted...NOOOOO....my stamina is so bad...

i think jogging is more of a mind over matter thinggy.....had to keep telling myself one more round. one more round...and no cute guys to help me keep up the momentum...haah..only old man with body odour so bad i was quite glad he ran quite fast...haha..spend alot of time watching paris hilton my bff..amelia introduced it to me...its not bad a show to past time..but seriously the values and all are way off...can they not treat paris like she is some God..i mean we are all humans what makes her better than any other ordinary person..i feel that everyone should keep their pride to a certain extent..not like revere her and just to be her best friend compromise their self worth...its a dumb way to find a bestie anyway..it take years to be someone's best friend..aahahaha but oh wells it still quite entertaining.

hiaz...can someone buy my clothes!!!!i so need money...grrrr

BY THE NUMBERS

2009-08-18T01:22:00.000-07:00

HELLO EVERYBODYY..........hhaha i think half the world gave up reading my blog since i am like so on off with blogging...but oh wellers...loads of stuff happened in the past one month..ok la...not super lot i guess...everything happened so quickly, i cant really remember....except that the last week was so bad i think death was a better option...but no, i must not be pessimistic but live life to the fullest...anyways i guess i learnt alot of valuable lessons in the past semester and i shall learn from them and be more vigilant in the next sem.....one of them is that when u fail to plan, u plan to fail..its really so damn true...and another is that u cant please everyone...u will definitely meet difficult people who dont agree with you, or dont understand you but at the end of the day, just be who you are. If they wanna hurt you with malicious words, ignore them, why pick up fight?u have better things to attend to anyways.

well i shall simplify the post by summarizing it with numbers...

6 projects had to be handed up together by the end of

6weeks. It was suppose to be 7 but since we were quarantined

at home, the one week wasnt really counted. Everyone was at a loss

of what to do anyways.

Less than 10 hours of sleep was what i got in 5 days in the last week.

some of my friends like slept less than me i think..omg they are real

superheros man...i think even batman got some sleep in his batmobile.

7 times i cried during the whole of last week...ok i know i am so gross..

i cried like once when i saw melvin's finger dripping with blood,after indesign

submission when i recieved mummy's message. Then at home after i woke up

from a one hour nap. i think i got emotional because i finally got my period after two months.

then in school when i was talking to amalina, haz, eunice and sharing with them about what motivates me to do well, i broke down again. then on friday i watched the fox and the hound,

a super touching cartoon about friendship, i started tearing. eh russ said he cried a bit also ok!!

and then on sunday, i watched faith like potatoes and there was a gruesome and sad scene.i cried like no mother. and then went to watch UP!with bestie and cried twice

wah tears like free u know! i prob can cultivate some rice with all these tears collected..no need for al these monsoon season...i am the monsoon..

1038438493473 the number of clothes i wanna get but

$0 the amount i have in my wallet...good job Dionne, ur dreams are so going to come true for you.ARGGGGG.... i wanna get strappy wedges..ok i just ordered them..i wanna get ripped leggings....i know where to get the best deals but so broke..i wanna get this long sleeve laced dress too!!!!and this studded jacket and tank from pull and bear(act pooh bear lore!!!)and then i have to dye my hair brown but i dont even have $10 to spare...

nice right!!but cant find it anywhere!!

2 kg..is the amount i have to loose by this holiday..u know i havent lost weight since i dont know when..i dont even loose weight when i dont eat..WHY WHY WHY???grr.....ok i need to paste a picture of megan fox in my room!!!and then motivate myself to look like her..hahaha...

3 years..the amount of time it took me to realise how hot zac efron is....ahaha..i mean all the while i thought he was not bad...but after watching 17 again..i kinda fell in love with him..but i dont realy like the fact that he is vain..heard he didnt wanna attend a party because he had a pimple....hiaz...i prefer guys who are nonchalent about how they look but look dashing when they just put on a pair of jeans and t shirt....like...but oh well i have moved on.

and lastly, many many thanks to my classmates from vc0801..who help me tide through the challenging weeks and the gazillion projects we had...thanks eevryone!!!!!!!!!!well i should name la...more sincere..

no order of preference.....

charis

chrissie

haz

natalie funfair

amelia

anggy

melvin

aisyah

dass

kaimin

lirong

amalina

dorin

faiz

u guys have helped me and touched me in ur own little ways..thanks so so much !!i really appreciate and love u guys so much...

and also to

olivia

tony

christabelly!

jillian

jolyn

janan

keith

ronda

ivan

jestyn

eugene

hernshung

kenni

thank you for your encouragements and messages...it really brightened up my day when they looked so bleak..thanks thanks

and to daddy and mummy..haha i dont think u guys read my blog right..dont luhhhhh....

just wanna thank you for being so supportive during the past few weeks

and i am so sorry for wasting so much of ur money for printing..u guys have been really understanding!!!love u guys so so much! haha i usually dont say these things but yea i do mean it...i promise to try my best in everything yea...wont wanna disappoint u guys time and again!

haha..here are some random pics from kite flying and asmara prize presentation last saturday!omg i got a victoria secret bag and like a dress for only 7 bucks!haha..gross i am..everywhere also shop.

2009-07-23T06:47:00.000-07:00

I AM SO DAMN PISSED.....

i felt cornered, betrayed, accused, unsupported and alone.

I dont like it when the word INNOCENT is used on me. I am not innocent at all.Definitely not. and i dont like it when people associate it with being a christian. Dont get me wrong, its not that i am not proud of my religion or anything but associating both words together just stereotypes me and i feel as though i have to live up to certain expectations. I am not like super holy all the time, but i try my best to do things according to my principals and beliefs. This was what my teacher said to me when i was ranting and was very upset about what some accusations hurled towards me.

he said"blah blah blah, so what more you are a christian, you must be more forgiving and be like GOD...". FIRSTLY, why do u have to use my religion against me, you stereotype ME AS AN INNOCENT CHRISTIAN GIRL and now use it against me??????SO ALL THE WHILE, YOU WERE THE ONE WHO MADE THIS IMAGE UP......and just because i am christian i dont have the right to be angry?????must i be innocent and docile all the time????DO U EVEN HAVE ANY IDEA WHY I AM PISSED?ARE YOU THE ONE WHO IS GETTNG INSULTED???AND ACCUSED?no!!!you werent, and you have the right to ask me to forgive and forget????if i was so bitchy, i would have confronted them in front of class but i choose not to do that....so people of other religion have the right to be angry and i dont?????so what do you expect me to do sir??????SAY OHH...ITS ALRIGHT AND EMBRACE THEM WITH OPEN ARMS???????

i think i do have the right to be angry and pissed...NO MATTER WHAT RELIGION YOU ARE, YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO BE ANGRY, THATS WHY GOD GAVE ME EMOTIONS AND ONE OF THEM IS ANGER. Please dont push me to my limit...I HAD ENOUGH OF ALL THIS SHIT OK...I NEED MY OWN SPACE, I NEED TO BREATHE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you know sometimes i feel so cornered and alone, i feel so empty and so overwhelmed....

do you know how hard it is to bottle up all your emotions........i had enough

thanks natalie and sonia for sticking up for me when stupid melvin threw pointless questions at me..

2009-07-20T09:09:00.000-07:00

its been a super long time since i blogged man..so many things happened, but i am just too lazy to put them down in words..anyways optimus prime is still the man of my life...ahaha..so tall and handsome with abs of steel..whoo i like..hehehhhe...wah i can honestly tell you that i am SUPER drained out..to the max...wah..its like projects after projects..i didnt even have time to go out during the weekends and i am like highly strung...cant even have my meals in peace...stupid school work..hiaz i am trying to put in my best effort in every assignment because i realised that i have been too last minute the past term and it seriously sucks to wake up in the middle of the night in shock and panicking about unfinished work..i can expect a dip in my grades but since the battle is not over yet,i will try my best to win the war!

anyways vc01 peeps!!we can do it..lets own ms ong's ass in studio,lets shock wui kong with our nice work that we can produce even though our attendence sucks and getting locked out of class is like a normal routine..lets prove to ms tan that even though shes in china, our work is kick ass standard...like what the koreans say with so much zest and excitement:FIGHTING!!!ok thats so dumb...who says fighting like that???but ar wells u get the point la..

i was thinking about studio and the questions which miss ong posted to us...what are the factors which motivates you to wake up every day?who inspires you...

well for me my parents are the reason i wake up everyday for school, the fact that i wanna prove to myself that i can succeed in something gets me going, the image of me graduating from university with my family members surrounding me as i am dressed in my university cap and gown getting ready to pose for a picture edges me on, the thought of my parents slogging my guts out to pay for my school fees and materials makes me want to do well so that i will not disappoint them and make them feel that all their money has been washed down the drain, my friends who are always there to pull me up,consistently letting me know that design is my interest and i should never let go, my grandparents who are clueless about what is going on but seeing that i am a happier person in poly and acknowledging it through words,God, who has seen me trough the hard times and being so merciful to me in so many ways and opening my eyes to the things unseen.These are the reason why i have not given up even when the going gets tough. Their love, their hopes they have pinned in me, my passion,my future.

Funny isnt it, how i teared as i typed these things out. I guess i always held this thoughts close to my heart, but never really expressed them in the form of words.hehe, i guess so far from the all the blog posts which i have posted, this was the only one which i really revealed my inner most feelings..Tough times dont last, tough people do..my all time favourite code..so i guess after one more month, it will be all smiles again..not that my days are filled with tears or whatever...talk is cheap, so i shall tell my self that i will keep to my word, and start working hard..whee

haha i shall end these post with happy people and happy faces!!FLOOD THE NATIONS With pictures.....haha they were taken on various outings and i was just lazy to upload!!!

CLUBBING AND WILD GIRL IS ME!!!

ahahah taken in sec 3

no one would wanna marry me even if i was worth a dollar

So what makes you wanna wake up and face the challenges ahead?

2009-07-01T11:48:00.001-07:00

hello pals who are made up of tissues and cells!!!

whee...my hols are extended because of H1N1....i think its great that we have more rest but kinda pity the patients..how does it feel to have SARS and H1N1..its not that i am anticipating and praying to get it...but i think it feels really terrible right..i mean normal fever can make you feel so bad..that time when i had fever i thought i was going to die...hahah i told my mum i experienced dying halfway...and her reply was the usual..BIMBO,always say stupid things..haha if i am a bimbo, paris hilton would be reincarnated twice...i dont believe in reincarnation...i just cant think of a better analogy..

tissue..

so i have an announcement to make....hurry get so excited like me!!!

I LOVE OPTIMUS PRIME AND I WANNA MARRY HIM..whooo..the cutest and sexiest thing on earth currently is him..yay!!like what keith said, i have transcended beyond flesh or something like that..his voice is terribly sexy(i meant optimus not keith,i mean keiths voice is nice in another way)...seriously i am so gonna use his voice as my alarm so that i will love waking up..like everytime he says "AUTOBOTS ROLL!"wah! i get so excited i spring out of bed and number one in class would be me..but for all who know me, being first in class is almost impossible and it is comparable to kai min being late for class which is very impossible..hahaa..kai min if u are reading this i am complimenting you:)...and on a random note....how come the decepticons are so big and the autobots are so small...the autobots must really change their diet you know..its like they are so scrawny can..wah when the stupid decepticons ripped my husband into two..i almost cried..haha unlike tony who got so emotional at the megan fox telling that shia dude that she loves him...thats kinda corny..in comparison to my husband's near death...oh and i read the interview with the director michael bay and he said that if he could transform into something,he would transform into a bed right now..hahah i think its quite funny...

i am so cool i have abs of STEEL(get it get it)

whoo i am striking a super cool pose and Dionne shall marry me...

seriously how can one be so punctual...grr..i hate all the lateness thats in me...i tried my best to change but to no avail...if a director needed someone to act in scenes which requires a girl jumping up from bed looking all flabbergusted and messy stimultaneously..pick me pick me!!! i can even do it for free!! just shoot me every morning on a week day...whoo it will look so real i probably win a golden globe award for best expression in the morning...oh oh anyways i bought a hair curler:)!!!yay a babyliss one from malaysia..its only $50 plus...but i cant seem to make my curls stay...and i dont wanna put too much mousse because it will make my hair so stiff...if i swing my hair around and it hits someone, he/she prob fall into a coma straight away..hehehe..anyways if you have any recommendations as to which brand of hair spray is good..let me know k...hehe...and i bought a hello kitty mouse too...i have been searching high and low for it..even declared on facebook. and i finally found it in malaysia...singapore sells but its really difficult to find the one which is the whole hello kitty face with the ribbon as the right and left buttons...yay! all my missions were accomplished this holiday..

hehehe so cute right!!!

SUNBAE!!!!!!!!!!!SCREAMS SUPER LOUD

and yea i finally finish boys over flowers..like finally all 25 episodes..and i think i dont like it as much compared to the beginning when i started watching it...haha...sorry to all the fans out there, dont take it personally but the show is too unrealistic...haa..i mean yea i wanna be a princess and live in fairytale world but i think some parts are too unbelieveable...and seriously can they girls dont scream when they see their seniors...like SUNBAE!!!!!!and they give the bewildered look like they havent seen them in 100 years..ahaha...and i dont understand how come the lead keeps fainting and drowning when she is a swimmer...haha fainting its fine because she is malnourished and doesnt get enough vitamins but how come she keeps getting cramps in her legs...like thrice or 4 times throughout the show....and the male leads are 24/7 coming to her rescue..haha like they have a radar to track all her movements.

i didnt cry or get really touched throughout the whole show because i felt the storyline was very predictable...compared to my takuya kimura show which i sobbed so badly and used up half the box of tissues. and they keep flashing back to the lead drowning...but it was fine as a form of entertainment i guess...poor violin dude...

and can the teachers dont ignore us and let us know whether our attendence is taken..

AUTOBOT OUT!

shopping and more shopping

2009-06-22T09:08:00.000-07:00

i hate shopping......THE OPPOSITE...haha thats something that i will never hate in my entire life..

anyways on a very bright side compared to the bleakness that befalls when work is involved...i went to malaysia with my parents and brother!!!whoo hoo!!!!i had so much fun man..seriously!!!!it was like all my stress and troubles dissolved into thin air and i was floating through the malls...haha..the shopping was fabulous,the food was good, and finally i didnt have any disagreements with my mum throughout the whole trip.i think she has finally grown into a matured individual..ahaha.ok la shameless me...i think we both learnt to give and take....plus everyone laughed alot during the whole trip..which made it really fun....i mean last time when i wanted to buy a dress, my mum will like scold me and say stuff like do you have parties everyday?then why must you dress up so nicely???who do you wanna impress???er....all i wanted was to buy a dress...haha seriously no need for all these unecessary emotions...

so our first stop was some cafe which served really nice white ice tea...oh my gosh...and i dont mean it like as a casual comment...its really so nice that i floated up from my sit..i felt like drinking 10 more cups but my waist line didnt permit me to do so...and i didnt eat much because i was so excited about the shopping later...i felt like bursting forth into the shops!!!the shops are like super hip and cool can..some even better than the ones in far east and bugis...they sell really cool stuff that i saw from blog shops..BUT..they are super expensive..seriously did they sew some gold patches secretly in the pockets or something...like a pair of high waisted shorts cost like $90 rm...eh dont laaaaa....i rather wear a leaf then buy the shorts...hahah ok i know i am rather gross...

hehehe russ is so cute!!bean face..

haha the tea is really irresistible....

so we walked around and my dad was like telling my mum and i about how cheap the massages were in malaysia.....and then both my mum and my eyes lit up..and the next thing i knew, my mum paid for a full thai body massage for the both of us....ok or rather my dad paid for it but he just passed my mum the money...haha my dad is really sweet....wah the first thing i thought of when i went for the massage was like asmara and how i hated doing the logo.. super dumb but that was what was racing through my mind...

we were like led into this super cool room with dim lights and relaxing music after we put on like really big pajamas..then the massage began!!!the feeling was great...i could feel all the stress dispelling from my body...but at some parts of the massage, it was like super painful until it became ticklish and i kept laughing...i think the masseuse was kinda freaked out...and they cracked like almost all the nuckles in my body....i tried to like sleep but to no avail because i had to sit up,turn my body around and all...and at one point of time,they swung me around like 90 degrees and i heard my ribs crack..hahaha...i guess spas and massages are great when no logo designing is involbed...

the super hard beds...i jumped on it and hurt my elbow..

happy pajama people!

then after the relaxing massage, we went to eat lunch at this hong kong cafe...the waffles were like damn nice!!!haha fats is me...then the shopping began!!wah i totally went wild...most of the shops were having a sale and there were many great deals...i bought 2 pairs of shoes!!one in pink and the other in turquoise....haha and they both had ribbons...managed to get 3 tops also...but sadly i couldnt get the curler..it was all sold out..valerie told me that they sold it in holiday inn shopping centre but my dad said that that place has a lot of gangsters and its not safe....but i secretly wanna marry a gangster leh...haha i totally should go there because i will be killing 2 birds with one stone...get the curler and get a gangster boyfriend.

anyways hope u guys are enjoying the hols as much as i am!!!wheee...

p.s: more pics of dad soon!!!

2009-06-21T05:42:00.000-07:00

hello wello jello kello mello cello bello...ahaha..whatever...anyways global warming sucks!!!!grrr...i feel so sticky like mickey everyday la..hiaz....actually i am suppose to be flying to thailand tomorrow morning..but my parents are kinda worried abou the h1n1 virus and all..grrr...i was picturing myself sitting in a pile of clothes and throwing them around like money.....but now all my dreams are dashed...haha.but my mum promised to buy me a hair curler...whoo finally i can say bye to kinda straight boring hair...plus maybe i can squeeze a few dresses out from her...haha....

So yesterday was tony's,blossom's and nat's birthday celebration at kensington park....took pictures,used jillian's polaroid camera,crapped all...ate marshmallows which looked as though they had tumours growing all over....i dont know but i hardly eat during bbqs...hm...maybe i should have bbqs everyday then i can grow skinnier..grr...looks like i cant really stick to my exercise routine..oh nooo!!!

anyways to the 3 of u guys!!!happy birthday and may your faith in God grow stronger as you grow older..and i am really glad to know all three of you:)

and on friday..the cycling gang went to watch DRAG ME TO HELL!!!its the very first time i watched a horror show in the cinema...haha...i think i piad $6 to watch my jacket or something..plus we were sitting in the second row so we were super duper near....haha i kinda scared olivia and bryan even before the movie started.

.i cant remember the name of the horror movie but it was super scary and i screamed during the preview and hit bryan's arm causing him to jump in shock...ahahahah..then olivia screamed and i think tony also got a shock..ahaha..i think tony was the most hum ji of all because he was almost sliding off his sit and shaking like a banshee..

haha.. this is how we look like in the cinema...

ahaha...and he still wanted to scare us by shouting boo when there was silence during the show...anyways i had fun catching up with them and really miss their company..argg..the next time we watch a horror movie..i probably bring ear plugs and blankets all...now i am kinda afraid of buttons...because the old lady cursed the button and caused terror to befall the girl..seriously i dont really think its the female lead's fault..i mean the bank already extended the old lady's loan twice or something...plus she didnt shout and scream at the old lady she told her nicely leh..haha sorry emotional..i better dont rant about it anymore later the old lady curse my hello kitty water bottle..i dont want...

besties:)

haha the only odd one out..

haha ultimate ah beng is bryan..jared the fish,tony the stone..olivia

and i are trying our best to look ah lian..
blow wind blow face...

2009-06-19T09:10:00.000-07:00

my whole world is crumbling before my eyes.

the people i once loved have disappointed me once again.

i dont understand why is making a call so difficult. so now you guys

assume that i am busy all the time. drifting is all you can say. . .but do u guys do anything? and to think that i treasured all the times together and how we said we will always be there for each other.and why must you all choose this time when i am struggling and feeling so alone and abandoned to do this to me...do you know how left out i feel..just because i dont voice it out mean that i am immune to all these rubbish you know..

but anyways to the few of you guys, i just wanna thank you guys for the friendship we once had.

call me petty but i dont think i am going to tolerate all these anymore. dont ever call me out, dont even message me.just dont do anything.i am tired of it.thanks

2009-06-17T07:45:00.001-07:00

I seriously dont know what the hell is my mum's problem..seriously...in the morning when i rush out of the house feeling so tired and weary because i had only an hours sleep the previous night, she yells at me...when i dropped my drawings into a puddle of water, leaving me in tears and shock, she shouts at me and says it was my fault...so its my fault that i left it nicely in a folder and it slipped out.when i am finally able to get some rest and sleep, she yells and tells me that i still have one more assignment and that i better stop being so relaxed...WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT FROM ME MUM...could you be more understanding and just listen to what i have to say and stop scolding me for my poor time management..why dont you take over all my projects..we all have our own stress so could you just stop annoying me for once..and stop poking me..i hate it....thats the most irritating thing someone could ever do...could you freaking respect the fact that i dont like it and shut up about the you are my mother thing..i give you all the respect you deserve but please dont test my limits.i am trying my best to be understanding..it doesnt mean whatever you see is what you get. i may sound rude on this post but sorry my boundaries are pushed and i have to vent it out somewhere.

cramps and thank you messages

2009-06-16T20:54:00.000-07:00

ARGGG....now i am having flu and cramps can kill ok... in my world you can summon the

power of cramps to attack your opponent.. hm... can u imagine if harry potter uses the

cramping spell on voldermot..it will be like wingardin crampyosa!!!!!then the next thing you

see voldermot cramping on the floor and his mum smirking in the corner with a "i-told-you-

not-to-drink-cold-water-so-now-you-deserve-it"face.take away voldermot and replace it with

dionne hoe shu min and this is what happens when i complain about my cramps..my mum will

keep nagging and scolding me,telling me to cut down the intake of cold drinks...grrr..whatever

whatever...

anyways hello again brothers from another mothers and sistas from another mister!its the holidays..whoo!!!are you feeling as happy as i am!!!wah this sem was really bad..i really hate it so so much...i wanna go back to year one..at least you dont have to think so much when you paint..all the staying up late and panicking as you race against time has just taken a huge toll on me..you know until yesterday i still dreamt about stupid asmara and how i forgot to place my logo on the leaflet..i am going to burn that stupid spa down...

so finally i feel humane today...i ate properly, i had enough rest and i didnt get any sudden panic attacks...now when i think of hell..i think of school...i shall make a new version of the show drag me to hell..it will feature teenage girls and boys going to school and dying because of he heavy workload placed on them..they enter looking carefree and happy but exit looking haggard,lost and depressed....but of course there are some parts of school which i enjoy which is the being able to joke and laugh with your classmates.....haha and since we are at the topic of classmates i would like to use this opportunity to thank those who helped me out....

1)Chrissie and Charis

YO TRIO GOING TO OHIO people..haha. just wanted to let you guys know how much i appreciate whatever you have done for me...thanks for seeing me through my darkest times and also laughing and crapping with me even when we were all stressed and flustered.. thanks also for comforting me when somethings were getting too overwhelming and therefore causing me to break down...haha...(you know u know)..plus thanks also for putting up with the times when i was grumpy...to sum it all up, i am really glad to know u guys better this term..i guess sometimes when you think you lost people who were precious to you, God gives and allows you to discover people who will also play an important part in you life...

2) Hazwani, Kai Min, Lirong, Amalina

hey guys! just wanna thank you all so much for helping me not only in my work but also cheering me up when i was feeling very upset with some things and people...the G session was really funny....thanks kai min and sorry to keep bombarding you with questions about cs4...its really sweet of you to help me out time and time again..li rong, thanks for helping me out with the alignment for indesign..:)and haz thanks for also helping me with photoshop and importing things from ps to illustrator...Amalina, your funny antics never fail to cheer me up..

3) Dass and Faiz

hey dass and faiz! i am not sure if u read my blog but just wanna thank you so much for edging me on....thanks Dass for always making the effort the drop me messages either on msn or through sms...its really very sweet of you and i appreciate every bit of it...and faiz...thanks for all the advice u gave me when i was flustered and trying to rush out my the comm skill project:)

4)Anggy and Melvin

heyer you both! thanks anggy u really helped me out alot this sem...esp for asmara..you were always ready to help and thanks for also sending me templates and layouts for references...you really made my work easier and i am very thankful for all the help you have given..and melvin!!!thanks for helping me in indesign and cutting my poster because i was so hum ji and worried that i would cut into the poster:) but on a side note: stop devil locking me la..ahhaa!!!

5)Natalie and Aisyah(fairy princess wanna be..hehe)

hey nat, thanks for giving me advice about my friendship issues and also standing up for me during presentations when ridiculous questions were posted...and aisyah neopets!!!thanks for you envelop template and for all your help for asmara!!!!:)

i am sorry couldnt name the rest of the class but i really wanna thank you all so much for helping me in your own little ways and i really appreciate all you have done..thanks for standing up for me and helping me out with q and a sessions which was such a headache..haha...take care and have fun during the hols!!!you guys made lessons more fun:):):)

and church pals!!if u guys are reading this thanks for the encouragement notes during encounter!!it was really thougtful:)and God, haha this sounds informal but thank you for seeing me through and letting me know that you are always there for me because you are always a step ahead and have been there before i have even reached....thank you for holding my world in the palm of your hands and allowing me to place all my burdens at your feet...

LOVE U ALL LOADS:) XOXO

AND YAY I AM GOING TO BANGKOK!!!SHOPPING HERE I COME!!!

2009-06-01T10:52:00.000-07:00

okok i have like dead written all over my head...i am so worried..like i have to pass up everything next week and everything doesnt seem to be finalised..OMG OMG..!!!stupid singapore day items not done...not sure if it will even work out..grrr....hiya...who cares whether those unappreciative people keep the items or not..just freaking give them airline tickets to fly back to singapore la...no need for all these gifts to remind them about singapore...i mean the fact that they wanna move overseas means they kinda like other countries better....like as though looking at a picture of a merlion will make them burst into tears and wanna hop on the first plane back right...my tagline should be "dont migrate, your own country you should not hate"..or "dont migrate staying here in singapore thats your fate"..ahahha..but sadly i dont dare propose all these ideas...so i have to settle with " always a part, never apart"..i think i heard it from somewhere....aiya..wish me good luck people..and tag on my tag board leh..it feels so dead and like whenever i go to my own blog i feel as though they are flies everywhere like its so dead and dry..whatever..ok byes...doing work time is now..

*p.s....the fisherman dude in harpers island is so cute right...

*p.s..s. seriously i wanna marry a guy like chandlier(from friends)....

LIFE IS BRIEF BUT WHEN ITS GONE..LOVE GOES ON AND ON

2009-05-26T22:18:00.000-07:00

and as we watch the lazy world go by...

HEEHA!ok whatever...havent blogged since school started...hiaz..its like there are like so many things to do but yet i am feeling kinda relaxed and stimultaneously i am panicking..i feel as though i am watching my death play out in front of me...the H1N1 virus has hit singapore...hiaz..i know of many people around me who are kinda rejoicing because they are hoping for a holiday but actually we should be feeling the opposite....i mean not like wail and cry..but i guess be a bit more sympathetic and pray that the patient will recover quickly?It definitely doesnt feel good feeling sick right...

anyways i kinda like miss ong quite a lot..not like romantically attracted la...but i feel that she is really compassionate and puts the welfare of others before herself.. like the fact that she shaved bald to donate her hair to the cancer foundation..(though i am a little confused because her hair was already short before previously so how to make a wig?)and also she is vegetarian!!!! Gosh...the only people can think of who have really short hair and are vegetarians are like monks and nuns...oh anyways side track a little but i dont wanna be a nun anymore ok!!!

ya so you see dont u agree that she is one cool woman..right not right not...oh i just found out that everywhere i go, i will always move in squardoms of 3s....like in church and in school..last time when i was really young..i also hung out with 2 other girls...OK..so to sum up everything in three words...HAPPY THREE FRIENDS...hahaha..oh by the way..i have skype..add me ok..my username is dionnehoe.. i only have 3 friends currently(see see 3 again)..i talked to keith yesterday and i looked really bad..hazeline snow, hair clipped up,wear specs all.hideous girl is me...he wont mind anyway...i am not his eyecandy...more like eye sore..haha..speaking about eye candies...i havent had any since dont know when...actually i realise i miss _ _ _ _...hehe.(aiya u wont know who it is)

last saturday was our ym outing to the botanical gardens...had a picnic,played a grp bonding game, my grp baked cookies...bonded like james bond..took pictures..looked fat in them...lamented about my meatiness....took more pictures...realised i looked ok in some of them..went to home club flea...told myself i wont buy anything and thus thrifty girl will be me...arrived..was excited by all the beautiful clothes..gave in to temptation,bought shoes and shoes...hence broke girl is me...

i think i am going to be bankrupt when i grow up..goodluck to me.

the trio goes to ohio....

ATTRACTIVE ADVERTISEMENTS!

2009-05-07T18:57:00.000-07:00

I am locked out of class now...arg... i was late because i was contemplating whether i should go for class since i woke up with a terrible headache..hiaz..and i DROPPED MY MAC...wah it felt as though someone drowned my kid or something...we should just be let in ok..since we made the effort to come to school..

ok i am currently back in class now...the teacher let me in...haha...waited a while with natalie..and we took some stupid photos...anyways i had an assignment on advertisements and how the visual works with the heading and subheading...here are some super cool adverts which i like a lot!!!

Here comes another example above of ways in which brands are leveraging street art and culture jamming to sell products.Appetizing photo of a cup of Folgers coffee was printed on vinyl and placed on top of steaming New York City manhole covers. Holes cut out of the vinyl let steam rise through. Headline around cup reads “Hey, City That Never Sleeps. Wake up.”

An advertisement for a job recruiting company in Berlin , Germany . Depicting people working in the vending machines, ATMs, it delivers the message that 'Life is too short for the wrongjob'.

A very cost-effective advertisement in Hong Kong for a yoga school showcases the prowess of a yoga practitioner on the flexible stems of drinking straws. Enquiries and enrolment went after up this promotional stunt.

A creative ad by Mini Cooper placed at the Zurich , Switzerland train station, shows people climbing into or out of the car, when they are actually entering or exiting stairs.

The naked truth(haha i came up with that!!)

The action is named ‘None of us would like to end up like this.. neither would other-than-human animals’ and it was done with four big foam trays, each of them containing a naked activist inside, and covered with a see-through plastic with a ‘Human meat’ sticker on it. The idea was to imitate the ‘meat’ trays we can find at the supermarkets and to show that we are also animals, just as other-than-human animals, we neither would like to end up there.

WHEE!!!!

haha these advertisements are like super duper cool right!i think they really grab's one attention and make it really memorable therefore the advert has successfully achieved its purpose!!!i really hope that i can be as creative as these advertisers..they rock socks man...and on a random note i think i am bursting with fats now since i just ate macs...OH!and tomorrow is fleaker of hope...amandal jillian chris and i will be tending a stall ,selling some of our clothes..haha just come on down if u can make it ya..there will be loads of cool stalls from well known blog shops..i cant wait to buy my top and skirt from vineyard co.!!!and JILLIAN put in a lot of effort to organise this event..its part of her CCA and the main purpose is to raise funds for a charitable organisation!!!SO SUPPORT HER YA!!and give her a pat on the back when u see her..hehe:)

Haha this picture is taken early this year during jillian's birthday(HAHA jillian you confirm kill me but never mind)...when my Dad sees it he keeps thinking it was taken when we were primary 6...haha jillian really looks exactly like how she did when she was primary 4..hehe....okie dokes this sums up my post!and this is my first official post which i have updated in school!oh random again but did i mention how much i love playing wii with my DADDY ,TONY HOE BOON POH!!!..haha..he will gang up with me against RUSS!!MUAHAHAHA..see ya tomorrow! be there or be square!not circle.ha.

the opposite of love isnt hate, its indifference..and now i clearly understand the meaning of this sentence

2009-05-07T06:48:00.000-07:00

" OH ITS HAPPENING AGAIN"..i heard this sentence in school and i got a bit freaked out.Its actually a very simple sentence but yet it sounds like danger is lurking behind it. If you hear this sentence in jurrasic park u probably have to run for your life because it means the t rex is chasing after you or maybe your shot gun is not working therefore you exclaim that "its happening again"..but actually it can be applied to a good situation too..like maybe you are playing wii with your brother and father and you happen to keep winning thus u comment oh its happening again...but sadly the tone which the person said it in made the situation bleak.

today you drew the line clearly
and pushed me to my limit
i am not going to care anymore
because it just shows how narrowminded
and selfish you can be.
Maybe its a blessing in disguise
just wanna let you know that i am
going to FIGHT FIRE WITH FIRE.

2009-05-05T04:55:00.000-07:00

school has started..and i am still in holiday mood..haha thats such a cliche sentence right...i think i may be a closet diabetic..i keep sleeping..maybe i must start exercising and breathe in fresher air..anyways..i just killed a stupid bug with my walk a jog 11th place trophy...i really miss PL so much...

during these 2 weeks i cant remember a thing which made me really happy..maybe playing wii with dad and russ..hahah my dad is super cute when he plays wii....

i feel that everything is just kinda mundane and boring... and i dont even feel like dressing up for school anymore...sometimes i feel that i cant seem to fit in...i think maybe the problem lies with me..even people whom i thought i could be close to disappoint me really badly...now i feel that there is a wall between us...and then there are times where i just feel that its so hard to mask my emotions...i try to act like i dont care about what happened and bury all the bitterness inside me...i guess people just walk in and out of your life..but i still thank God for those people whom never fail to make me smile...

2009-04-15T05:44:00.000-07:00

sometimes i wonder how come i cant be the other person...why must i be the one lying back and watching the whole stupid commotion with a huge pain in my heart..i am sick of masking all my fears and dealing with the insecurities inside...i dont know what i have ever done to deserve this..i hate wondering and hoping so hard that its all a lie...but sadly reality dawns and once again its the same nightmare that haunts my dream...seriously i wonder whether it exists or maybe i am just the unlucky one..and once again i am hurting inside....

HOLIDAYS!!CELEBRATE!!!

2009-03-24T20:12:00.000-07:00

HEY!!!the lose weight and start looking hot like a swim suit model regime has officially started!!!hehe..i realise that i am getting fatter and lazier by the day so i decided to move my ass and start exercising like never before..yesterday i ran like 16 rounds around toa payoh stadium..which is around 6km i think..and today i ran 50 rounds around the park...whoo hoo...actually i walked all the way to toa payoh stadium but some stupid guys were having some stupid guys sports day and everyone in the stadium were guys..so i thought it was be super AWKWARD if suddenly a girl with a ponytail showed up and started running..so i ran away..ahah get it i RAN away..ok whatever that was a stupid pun..seriously how do u jog but still look so good at the same time..when i jog i look so hideous that even the gong gongs dont wanna take a second look at me..hehehehe

so i had to resort to running around the park which didnt have the nicest smells...and i passed by some gongs gongs and po pos like 5 times because they were walking kinda slowly but they were really adoarble...i saw an old couple talking a morning stroll together...aw so cute right..i wanna take strolls with my husband when i am old too...then we can hold our wrinkly hands and talk about my 80th princess party..oh btw just wanna let u guys know that i am going to throw a princess party when i am like 80 years old..i invited the cycling gang and tony,bryan and jared will be coming in prince's attire..olivia will of course be in a pink frilly dress..oh so whoever that is reading this..u are officially invited...think of a costume to wear ok!!!it will be loads of fun...we will all prob have difficulties getting punch and cakes since our legs ache so much...dont worry i will buy automated wheelchairs to wheel ourselves around..hehe maybe i should get a portable mike since we prob cant really hear properly...

argg..the holidays are ending quite soon and i am freaking out!!NO....last week i went for CAM..aka creative arts ministry camp..its like a 3 day course where u learn more about like worship leading..how to improve ur music playing skills..i went because i wanted to learn more about bridging because i get kinda nervous and sometimes i dont really know what to say...well they didnt really address that issue though but i learnt more about how to start worship and how to warm up the crowd...hehe the youths look so sian every sunday even after i tell them the lamest jokes that i can ever think of...

whoo the black mafia gang..how cool is that..hehe the last day everyone had to kinda perform and put their skills to practise..look at the super cool TMC band..sud sud man..!!

the course made me think quite a bit..like how to carry myself as a worship leader and my role as one..i guess its really important that we all sing for God and not for man..that was actually my greatest fear and it kinda stopped me from taking up the challenge to be a worship leader until the end of last year..i really enjoy worship leading alot..and it makes me really happy when i see the youths just opening up and singing praises unto the Lord...and i love my band members alot too!!they are really understanding..sometimes i get a bit blur and lose my chords and all but they will help me print another set..hehe so sweet right..so YES i am going to be more on and start preparing my songs earlier....and most memorable event of last week was meeting up with the CLIQUE!!WHOO!i love meeting up with those crazy people...hehe actually i am the one who makes like majority of the noise...

prefects of the world UNITE!gosh i am so happy that i am not a prefect anymore!!i didnt really like the role of one anyway..like carrying out the barking orders of ms gan and trembling whenever she wanna see you...that was hell...but on the plus side i made some really good friends..

run baby run....

favourite picture of the year award...haha sherrie's expression is priceless

heheh amandal and i reached super early so we walked around first..then we happen to chance upon this push cart where they were selling this super cool will not damage ur silky hair curler but its retailing at like $140 plus..siao..so they will promote their product but curling some strands of ur hair..and that sneaky amandal managed to talk so long to the sales girl and the sales girl curled her whole hair in the end..sneaky sneaky..my hair was curled a bit at the ends..wah seriously look at my fishballface..argggg....

i can never thank God enough for allowing me to meet these beautiful people..love ya guys loads...always had and always will:)

hehe let me bid u farewell with my stone fish ham jing peng face...ooh btw got back results..it was better than what i expected..thought i would like fail ergo and drawing..but THANK GOD I DIDNT!!whee...but kena dragged down by sem one..but God has been really faithful to me..!!see ya when i see ya

2009-03-11T23:41:00.001-07:00

HEYA!!i just realised that i havent been blogging about how my holidays have been so far..they have been great as i have been able to catch up with ALOT of rest and play..hang out with the cycling gang ,catch up with friends etc...however on the flip side, my mum keeps nagging and irritating the hell out of me..sometimes i wish i could just lock myself in the closet when she comes back from work..argg...seriously she is really getting on my nerves..hiaz..i shall not talk so much about her lest i die from enrangement or something...

so yesterday i went to sentosa with the cycling gang...we played basketball and volleyball..3 guys joined us in volleyball and one of them was quite cute..thats not the point..anwyays..i seriously suck at volleyball..super embarassing when i had to try 3 times just to do a good surf!!wanted to bury my head in the sand or something..but luckily everyone was really encouraging..then the guys played a friendly match against some bushido school volleyball players and they kinda lost but i think they played really well..

whoo!!!all the kick ass action man!!!

haha remember the guy that i mentioned who was not too bad looking??hes the one in the grey pants...and tony likes the one in the red singlet..ahaha.

jared looks really tired...and so does grey pants..haha and oh oh i made up some jokes you know..like when we placed our bags on the sand...i pointed to the bags and said hey hey look at our SAND BAGS..ahaha get it..and when we are hungry we can eat dome SAND whiches..ya fine i bet you are not laughing at all..

as we were frolicking in the welcoming waters of sentosa..we saw two sting rays mating..ok maybe they were father and son??i dont know...and tony suggested we caught them and sell them to chomp chomp..haha we can earn 10 bucks in that way...then we played monkey and my pants nearly dropped..ahaha...whoo i am so glad that i managed to exercise a little..lose all those unwanted fats..but my hands are aching so much now and i am super sunburnt..gosh i need a torchlight to see myself...so after washing up and all..we went to vivo city and ate carls junior..ahahha..piling up fats again!!i shared my burger with olivia so that i wont feel so guilty...wah carls junior is seriously the sex!!its super good but super fattening..sometimes i wish i was born anorexic.. the cycling(cute)gang..aahahh...olivia,tony,me,jared the bufflord and bryan olivia and me the dark knight...

haha thats tony's fries..but he didnt manage to finish it...luckily right..if not he will have to starve for the next 4 days..seriously the cycling gang makes me health consious..and everyday is like sports day to them..they gym everyday,play basketball everyday...

and when we went to daiso,jared decided that he wanted to try on my cardigan and he managed to squeeze his way through..haha luckily he didnt burst forth in it..or i will cry as its my only cardigan..ahahah this is a super gay picture..i cant stand it..

now i shall burst forth with photos from our previous cycling outing to never never land..

i look awfully small...and pink..haha

the bumble bees...

we wanted to ride all the way to changi coast or rather to the end of the road but we didnt manage to do so as we were kinda tired..so we went there the following week and managed to cycle all the way to the ends of the earth!!!hah these pictures were taken on our very first trip..

and yay!!!we reached our final destination...oh i forgot to mention that aaron joined us!!

yea and on monday we went to tony's house to play board games..like pictionary and the game of life...jared always drew the $20,000 card when it comes to choosing your career which is the least amount u can earn in the game and bryan ended up having 5 kids??or 7 kids...i cant remember but i think he needed 2 cars..ahaha...seriously he needs to hold his horses..hehe

pictionary was really funny because the guys couldnt draw..espeicially for jared...his grapes looked like cotton wool and he got aggitated when bryan couldnt guess it right...

and last satuday was JOYCEEEE MOYCEEE'S BIRTHDAY!!!HAPPY SUPER BELATED BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN JOYCE!!!!hehe she looks so cute with the balloons!!!

haha random photos taken in spot light!!!

heyers joyce!if you are reading this thanks so much for all the laughter and joy that you have brought to me during the last two years in PL...you never fail to make me smile with all ur crazy antics and blurness..love ya loads!!!

the pretty cake that felecia and jia lei got me:)

and before i end my super looong blogpost,these are over due pictures from my mini birthday celebration with charis, jia lei felecia and chrissie.we met at jurong point shopping centre and wah the journey to boon keng was a butt frying experience...it was like super super far..oh my gosh!!!haha after our meal at pizza hut we decided to walk around while jia lei and felecia said they had to look at something..then after like maybe 20 mintues, charis and chrissie brought me to swensens and jia lei and felecia were there...they said they were still hungry and wanted to order a meal..i nearly died..ahaha,,but actually they had planned a surprise and the people at swensens brought out ice cream and sang me a birthday song...hey guys if u are reading this,i just wanna thank you all so so much and also for seeing me through all the stressful times during final assesments and answering my calls..haha...i really treasure our friendship and i hope it will grow stronger over the next 2 years!!!love ya all truckloads and lets go out soon!!

P.S thanks for all the presents too!!!haha hello kitty overload!!

2009-03-07T06:54:00.000-08:00

Women & Chocolate
Why are women more addicted to chocolate then men? The answer may lie in hormones. Chocolate eating in women may be an unconscious attempt to keep hormone levels more steady. Women report that they have a an increased frequency of craving for high fat, pleasant tasting food including chocolate around their menses. This may be due to the higher levels of progesterone at that time. Progesterone is a female hormone that is important in ovulation and in the menstrual cycle. Progesterone is thought to induce fat storage and a drop of the level of fat in your blood may prompt a craving for fat.

look at the bane of my life resting comfortably in its silver wrapper!!!!arg..

okokk..i am freaking out!!!sorry to any guy who is reading this..i know the menstrual cycle has nothing to do with you but please bear with me as i rant on and on about this pain most girls have to bear...I AM EATING CHOCOLATES LIKE NO TOMORROW..HELP HELP!!!seriously if i didnt control myself i think i can finish like a whole cadbury bar by myself!!ok this is scary because i am worried the fats will just accumulate and the fats cells will just burst causing me to balloon up!!!arggg...then i wont be able to fit into my clothes and i am totally broke now so i wont be able to afford clothes of a bigger size...seriously it sucks during that time of the month..u feel fat and pimply and gross....i pray so hard that i will burn all the chocolate fat by sneezing and breathing..oh btw do any of u crave for chocolate too during that time of the month..pls say yes so i wont have to feel so guilty...

2009-02-16T22:50:00.000-08:00

OMG!!!!! -SCREAMS-and faints...DEV PATEL is so cute right!!haha..he has a bit of a blur look.. but thats what makes him charming..hehe i have a fetish for blur looking guys..you should catch slum dog millionaire if u havent...its super sweet and the story line is really unique...the soundtrack rocks too..i keep playing the jali ho song over and over again and dance to it in secret in my room..hehe..oh u nearing the end of the show, when he wore a shirt over the tank top(refer to 1st pic)..it super killed me la..plus when the wind blew and his outer shirt flew, it gave him that dreamy knight in a shining amour look..ahahha..plus hes 19!!!whoo a year older than me..thats it i am flying to london to find him since i have 2 months of nothingness to do..and what i super like about him is that hes really down to earth and friendly...i watched some youtube videos with him inside and hes really outgoing and adorable..he doesnt let fame get into him...omg then my child will be like chindian..like christabel!!!!so cute right,,and he/she will prob get nice features like long eye lashes and nice eyes..eh luda chris i am complimenting u indirectly.. haha...

2009-02-16T04:12:00.000-08:00

HOLIDAYS GERMOLIDAYS!!!WHOO!!!FINALLY THE AIR IS CLEAR LETS DRINK BEER!!!ahahah joking joking...relax theres no drinkation involved...omg u have no idea how happy i am now...finally all the stressful days are over...but i am suffering from side effects which is a super pimplified face...thus i am going to stay at home for a week and wait until i have flawless skin...WHY MUST PIMPLES EXISTS IN THIS WORLD..WHY WHY WHY...why cant we have heart shapes on our faces when we are stressed...i prob wanna be stressed my whole life..ahaa..

seriously , i think that having good complexion is important..then u dont have to invest in make up and mask...i mean when ur skin is glowing and all...screw the make up man...but then again make up do kinda enhance ur features..but u cant wear make up all the time right..what if someone pushes u into the sea accidentally....if u have make up on, it prob smudge..i mean yes water proof make up exist but if its that water proof, how are u going to remove it right..and make up remover does contain water...but imagine if ur skin is flawless and u emerge from the sea!!!whoo u prob end up looking like a mermaid and everyone will take turns to push u down the sea just to see how fabulous u are...

beauty is freedom!!!i think this sentence makes a lot of sense..got it from the nivea advert and it keeps playing through my mind..like a mind player of playdation...moving on..anyways u know what..i am 18!!i am kinda happy and sad stimultaneously...the upside was that i had the bestest celebration ever but the downside is that i dont feel 18...i have no idea why..i mean clubbing does not excite me as much as getting playing guitar hero...i still prefer drinking like coke to alcohol..

ok..i shall blog about how i celebrated my 18th birthday!!This year wasnt an exception and i celebrated the day of my birth with important people in my life which are my clique members,suanny , luda CHRIStabel and my church pals...eh i thought the luda chris thing was quite innovative of me...u know why because i go to nan yang poly!!the innovative poly...ya right..act only lore..ok moving on..amandal su anny and joyce actually wanted to surprise me..but because i was late in meeting chris and sherrie their plan failed..and amandal did something so stupid..she saw me and she went oh shit and hid behind morgan..seriously u dont need x ray vision to be able to see her because of her towering presence...hahah when she went into hiding i didnt know whether to laugh or cry or say bye bye since i was running late..haha but thanks amandal the surprise thinggy was super sweet..yup and then after a while..i spotted su anny holding colourful helium balloons..omg and i seriously love helium balloons to the max..i always wanted it since young..esp the hello kitty and princessey ones but my mummy always dont wanna get them for me..haha ..i was super thrilled and delighted when she passed them to me...haha she called me in the morning and asked her guy friends to sing me a birthday song too:)

the happiness that overfloweth...the balloons are so pretty right

ya ok the happiness thats me....haha sorry must action figure a bit...so after rens and dayna came, we decided to go eat at the mahatthan fish market which ironically was like a fish market..everyone was as packed as sardines(get it get it??>)so the school of us decided to go chill and cam whore while waiting for our turn....

CHRIS came for a while eve though she was really busy..love ya bestie..

haha caught unprepared

my collage skills quite good right not??

yuppers and then i kinda forced everyone to come up with an idea for hermans stupid poster..ok i shall just continue spamming the post with pictures..

so guessed what we ordered!!grilled chicken..ur head la..of course fish right

i am going to print this picture and paste it on my wall..omg look at renee being all choirish..ahaha

yup and half way through as we were partaking our meal..suddenly i see a train of waiters and waitresses advancing our direction...it was only when i realised that the waiter was holding a cake and then they broke out in a birthday song..i was really taken aback..ahah everyone is so terribly sweet right...

SUANNY, LUDACHRIS,AMANDAL,JOYCE,DAYNA,SHERRIE AND RENEE..IF U ARE READING THIS,JUST WANNA THANK U SO SO MUCH FOR MAKING MY 18TH SUCH A MEMORABLE ONE..I LOVE U GUYS LIKE HOW SAMSON LOVED DELILAH..ahah i act song lyrics..U GUYS ARE REALLY ONE OF GOD'S GREATEST BLESSING IN MY LIFE!!!:)ok u guys can shed tears now... then after dinner, i went to meet up with church pals at timbre because i am finally 18..hot and legal..ok la i kinda forced the hot part..hehe..but i didnt drink because i was worried i would get so tipsy that i wont be able to do hermans..so i drank a mocktail called shirleys temple and i swore i felt dizzy..and everyone laughed at me when i told them how i felt..

the temple of shirleyness

seriously look at jared's gek sai face...he said he doesnt like to smile..so i asked him not to smile for the picture..now he ends up looking like wood stock..ahaha
haha laxing bbq..there are girls too!!!xiao rong and ivans friend was present:)
and also not forgetting the mini celebration at home!!!u know my mum said singing a birthday song was redundant as i am so old..but i insisted and forced all of them to sing it in chinese,english and catonese..haha gongs sang the loudest..my gong gong so cute right..he should marry gong li..no one wanted to take pics with me..so heres one with my fav bro in the world.. my birthday cake..so cute right the little animals....my dad calls it madagascar..the pink icing is super nice:)haha its a tradition to have an ice cream cake every year

THANKS EVERYONE..I FEEL REALLY LOVED:)U GUYS GIVE LOVE A MEANING..

2009-02-10T07:56:00.000-08:00

Hello lucky duckies!!!!havent blogged for such a looong time...super busy with assignments...hiaz..my face is officially a pimple plantation...anyways.the little mermaid picture is so adorable right..i dont know why but i keep looking at it..i shall print it out and paste it everywhere in my house..ahahah..like what amandal and su ann did..they photocopied my primary school pic on my e z link card and pasted it on the school walls.haha this is a random post...shall blog more during the hols...and i think i am suffering from a mid life crisis..

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!YAY

2009-01-02T20:52:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!PULL Your EAR!

such a festive picture!

haha...speaking about ears..i pierced my ear again!haha..its not because i have a fetish for pain...i just wanted to make it more balanced...like 2,3...you know you know.(i think this you know thing is funny)..it was jolyn's idea..i mean i didnt mind because i always wanted another one on my left ear but somehow i felt it was too sudden...not that i have to stay at home and pray about it first and hope to get a sign..and i definitely wont ask my mum for her consent...because she prob go on and on about me wasting money and how she is going to cancel my credit card...but i just wasnt mentally prepared. in the end i still got it pierced..haha...we were squeezing each other's hands so tightly to the extend that i felt that i needed to get boxers for my hands to breathe..ahaha get it get it since guys usually wear boxers so that it would be more airy..ok this is out of point but i think guys should wear underwear in their boxers...its so weird..like not wearing underwear in your shorts..dont u guys fee uncomfortable>

and jolyn jumped when the earring went in....causing me to jump too since i was holding her hand..and the lady who pierced her ear kinda got a shock too...so to cut the story short...everyone jumped!!!yeah so we should all just watch the disney movie JUMP IN!yay!

so after seeing jolyn's reaction...i got really scared because it seemed as though it was really painful..and i am not really a fan of pain...but i mustered all my courage like a mustard seed and squinted my eyes to the point where it was non exsistent..(haha i know la my eyes are not naturally big but stop harping on the fact ok..)and then i embraced myself for the pain...and to make things worst the lady decided to do a mini count down to the new EAR piercing..(get the pun anot)..ahahah i am laughing so hard now...and then before i new it..the earring went in..

aiyo it really wasnt that pain..the pain was tolerable..haha but jolyn admitted that she has a low threshold for pain...so it was over imagining on my part...and u know the little tube of antiseptic that is always given when u get your ears pierced??ya jolyn prob have to order 3 more carton from the supplier..she applies it like every second...like breathing air..eh jolyn i bet as u are reading this, you are trying to squeeze every ounce of it on your ear lore..

ok moving on...guess what i did on new year's day...i slept till 1.30...and then i went to meet up with sherrie, amandal,joyce,renee and dayna!!!aka...my ex clique...but i didnt want to make it sound so cliquish..but its really a clique what...

thats us the guitar heros...renee bought the guitar hero world tour set...coolness thats the coolie..

yea i kinda suck at the drums..so i decided to be the singer instead..all the songs were so difficult to sing so we kept playing monsoon by tokio hotel...yea everyone hated me after that because the song kept ringing in our ears...

we were trying hard to get the emo look..hence the hair...and as u know we are well known for cam whoring or rather (amandal la) hehehe...we took quite a handful of photos..

ok this is the americas next top model shot and seriously all of us have no idea what sherrie was trying to do..we all laughed damn hard when we saw this photo..so we tried to imitate that in the next couple of shots...

THE STICKATION OF THE BUTTS....eh seriously i have no idea how sticking your butt out has to do with sadako...but oh wells...ahahah look at sherries face...i love suanning her...
awww....group shots

and the suanning never ceases....

eh hugging doesnt make us lesbian...

joker faces
normal faces..ahaha ...and i know i am not tall ok..

thanks guys for making the first day of 2009 such a memorable one..i couldnt think of a better way to start my new year...maybe a sudden closet of dresses would be another great option...but haha u all are so much more valuable compared to pieces of beautiful cloth...

and yes heres another group of people who means a lot to me...CHURCH PEEPSICALS!!!yay!!!started the year with GOD too!!!whom i love dearly...ya we were kranking here and there..supermaning that hooos!!!

haha seriously hern shung and tony ar...budget bros u know...they were our body guards for the day

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!HOPE THIS YEAR WILL BE A BLAST COMPARED TO THE PAST!!

OH MAN..i miss 2008..it was a great year..trackers,olympics and all..haha this post is too long...reminescence day shall be postponed till the next time i post:)byers

2008-12-25T21:28:00.000-08:00

YO EMBROYS!!!MERRY CHIRSTMAS!!!oh i remembered that i always like to write 'MERRY CATSMAS AND A PUPPY NEW YEAR!' in people's cards when i was in primary school..i thought i was super cool then..like i was so different from other kiddies around my age..haha..seriously SPCA should have hired me as their poster girl...speaking about poster girl.i always had a secret wish and that is to appear on national day banners which are usually hung around the estate..like you know " BISHAN TOA PAYOH TOWN COUNCIL"wishes everyone a happy national day..then my face appears and a megawatt smile flashes across my face and i will be holding a singapore flag and wearing a red and white dress

i mean i dont mind appearing on the poster for chinese new year also..i just have to look super ching chong chong with super red lipstick and hold two mandrian oranges..i mean i prob have to stand next to the GRC people but its ok...actually they photoshop most of the poster..so that the grass roots leaders will appear so big..and the residents will appear in the background like insignificant ants..

eh thats it..i have a brilliant plan!!!i shall fight with the town council people..before they put up any posters..i will make my own poster..i mean it depends on the festival la..like lets say for deepavali, i will take a pic of myself wearing a sari with henna prints and coconut trees all over the background..maybe surround myself with some oil lamps..then use photoshop to add in the words...DIONNE HOE SHU MIN a resident wishes you a very Happy deepavali...muahahahah..

everyone who walks past the poster would probably vandalise the poster like colour my teeth black and all..so i shall use some high tech material that doesnt absorb ink...

ok enough will poster appearances...lets talk about christmas!!!yayyers!!i received super a lot of hello kitty and pink stuff this year....notebooks,nail polish,candy boxes...they were all very pretty but its preventing me from getting into the black and dark blue mood...haha nowadays i prefer darker colours compared to dark colours..i think its just the mid life crisis...arrrg..school is starting like in 2 days...ar...but i prob pon lessons..since i am still in the festive mood..i love decembers the most because of youth camp and the youths get so closely bonded and i have time to bond more with russy boy..like watch tv together till the wee hours of the morning...ok so to summarize, decembers enables me to bond like james bond..

and not forgetting... December is also my best friend CHRISTABEL'S BIRTHDAY!!!!HURRAY!!!

bra a bit exposed..sorry for that

signature deer face

i must put this picture up...haha.

hehe whenever i feel down..this is the only picture that can cheer me up...

eheheh i look quite zai here right..like super gung ho and all..but then

i kinda fell...

anyways back to the best friend topic...

with a best friend like chris, nothing else really matters anymore!!!but for chris is not nail biting anxiety its ASS biting anxiety..teehee...thanks for always being there for me..haha you're the only one who really really understands me..i mean we were victims of u-know-who..so i guess its just you and me against the world..eheh i found out the title of the song..lets make that our best friends theme song...ahha and and in the future we must be yummy mummies and bring out daugters/sons to each others house ok..then we must also organise super cool costume parties..and bake and do craft at each other's house...maybe our husband's can also be best friends..and dont forget the aprils fools joke that we planned on our future boyfriends..ahaha...love ya truck loads CHRIS!!!

ohoh i put my pop up card making skills into good use..so poly isnt that bad after all...made 30 cards...printer ink running out like free...and i got a bit grumpy making them..because i have to keep cutting out small christmas trees and cookies for the background..

ya these are only a few cards..didnt have time to take a picture every single one of them..but my fav is the loco rocco card...so cute right..its the yellow lardy looking thing....its from a psp game..and you can combine them together to become a huge loco rocco and they make these really cute screaming noises...well merry christmas everyone!!if i have a kid in the future i will dress him/her as a little snow man...

2008-12-13T01:37:00.000-08:00

HEYA HEYA!!!!WHOO OH MY GOSH..i am so so so happy!!!finally i can break free!!!aahahha..the past two weeks have been so torturous..BUT church camp was a blast!!i really love it a lot!!but how i wished my holidays started then..haha homework was kinda clouding my mind..but seriously thanks to God i managed to pull through and complete all my assignments on time..he gave me strength to stay up late.i shall reward myself by buying clothes..teehee..sleeping for 4 hours everyday can seriously kill you..and i shall try not to sleep so late anymore..my mum said that i will age really quickly and have wrinkles...

never mind i will mask my face 3 times this week to make up for the unglowity in my face..hehe......and i grew tanner because of dragon boating...argg..but its ok dragon boating gives you muscles..i think now my muscles have muscles...

ohoho heres a stupid conversation between the dragon boat instructor and i...lets call him chunky thighs..his thighs are so ginormous that if u cut it off u can feed a starving nation for months..

CT(chunky thighs): so what school are you from??

ME:poly..nanyangpoly

CT:walau you look like a FREAKING sec 3 kid

me: ......(insulted and felt like bazookaing him)erm no i am already 17

CT:why u dont wanna join outdoor club

me:(was confused about what he just said and still pissed)erm well i dont know..i guess i dont have the time..why..do i look like i am from the outdoor club??(still wondering what kind of stupid club is that)

CT: NO U LOOK LIKE U ARE FROM CHINESE DANCE

ME: .........

wah!!!can CHUNKY THIGHS not..i didnt even question him about his thighs..and here he is bombarding me with questions and trying to guess my CCA...seriously i still think his thighs can kill...

whoo look at this cool picture..and that stupid christabel..everyday same facial

expression..next to her is jillian and then the FREAKING sec3 kid..

haha i was really refreshed through this camp and this is werid but i guess i just realised that i miss God a lot..as in like i havent been spending much time with him even though he is always there for me..guess its time for me to get back on track..and on track reminds me of TRACkers..ar..miss them so much..

seriously can money stop running away from me...there are loads of things that i wanna buy still..like a disney princess planner i saw at kinokuniya..a bag..hair accessories..but i realise i spent too much on clothes..ok really i must start saving...haha since i havent been blogging i shall show some of the assignments that we did...these are the assignments which robbed everyone of their sleep, freedom and also caused their skin to stop glowing...

1) Herman's assignment...the IPOD SKIN

tadah!!my PEAS on earth skin..will u buy it?

stayed up until 5.30 then woke up at 9.30 to rush to the printing shop.hehe the peas so cute right..i like the red indian pea..his face so cute i wanna squash him..i shall name him sam..SAM THE PEA..aww man so cute la...okok since i am bored i shall name the peas..i mean online shop name their clothes..which is ridiculous..

1) Madison..she looks a bit sick and looks like she needs medicine

2) SAM..awww

3)Mathilda

4)Robert?RUSS??looks a bit russy like

speaking about russ..i think this stupid brother of mine will kill alot of girls in the future..

colour studies....stupid water colour.

typography..this killed me..haha like how chunky

thighs can kill..hehe..oops..and miss tan made me do this pose in front of the class during presentation..haha..its suppose to be a self portrait of myself..but i dont know how to make it look like me..so i added the cross..to show that i am a christian..and a tiara..and a note..since i sing quite a bit..
yay..so its 2 weeks of holidays..and i LOVEEEE CHRISTMAS!!it gives me this warm tingling feeling..and i get fuzzy inside..hehe..shopping here i come!

2008-12-03T07:58:00.000-08:00

i havent been blogging because:
1) i am addicted to online shopping..(oops)
2)i am lazy
3)i am too tired

all the assignments are making me so stressed out and exhausted..like seriously so tired to the extend that even if someone were to drop my favourite metalic hello kitty water bottle causing it to smash into smitterins and crash with a deafening sound..i will sleep through it..i didnt sleep for the whole of monday..and if u know me well u would know that i cant tahan without sleeping..even during youth camp, i failed to stay up the whole night and even ran to the room just to get 2 hours worth of rest..ahaha..i seriously dont know how come i didn my work so slowly..i couldnt even complete it...

so the last 10 hands sucked..and i was so so nervous that my hands kept shaking so badly and i just couldnt calm down...my hands and legs were so cold too...seriously it felt like the whole world just crashed on me and there was this super empty feeling in me which i couldnt describe..it was really terrifying and i hope it will never ever happen to me again..seriously its time for me to wake up and start doing my work early instead of rushing it and producing a whole lot of shit mess at the eleventh hour..wah when i reached school to mount it on the black paper my hands were shivering so badly that i couldnt even cut properly...haha and these few days my fashion sense was terrible..

i just grabbed anything from my cardboard and literally flew out of the house...haha even the flowers in the flowerpot swayed because of the wind i caused..ahaha..joking..ya and on that day ronda and keith visited me..aahahha but never mind...they saw the shag side of me..seriously do miss the both of them..

camp is TOMORROW..gosh cant wait...actually i am very nervous about leading worship.its actually only my 2nd time..but i am confident GOD will see me through it all..and seriously God has been blessing me abundantly in many areas...i hope to be refreshed in this camp..kinda worried about school work but God will honour me as long as i put him first..oh welleys..gtg rest now..bye

2008-11-07T05:15:00.000-08:00

hello hello!!i know i havent been blogging since God knows when..anyways..i eat really fast..or rather thats what my clique members say..the thing is that when u are hungry then just whack and swallow la...i mean unless its like a 10 dollar cupake then better savour it..the thing is that i dont even know that i eat so quickly..but my dad eats way faster than me...aiya i think they eat very slow thats why..haha..i do everything slowly..like dress up take 1 hour, do homework..slow until it makes the snail look as though its flying while it crawls...but i eat super fast...maybe thats a gift..should take part in eating competitions...

anyways...my class went to the singapore biennale last week but i didnt have time to blog about it so here goes..well it was half excursion half assignment kinda thing..but oh well who really cares about the assignment..hahaha...yea if u are wondering what it is..its kinda like an exhibition where artist around the world showcase their master pieces in the form of painting, drawings,videos, photos..u get the idea...so my clique and i were like taking pictures like no tomorrow and miss lee had a dslr with her..so pictures BAO like free...haha

ar i wanna eat icecream..haha random caption

super love this art work..its like every thing is knitted..u know like grandpopsicals favourite pastime as they sit on a rocking chair next to the fireplace...everything leh..even the motorcycle..seriously..if i had the gift of knitting i will knit everywhere..in the toilet...as i put mask...on my way to school..half online shop,half knit..ahaha..oh btw the art work is at the back..not the 5 of us..we are not sewn..teehee This art piece is like..WHOO..are as fabulous as beckham's abs u know...its like flowers which are carved out from stainless steel...OMG...i cant even cut a straight line and these people here carving flowers like no mother...and the thing is that the metal is so fragile...can u imagine when the artist is like carving and suddenly someone scares him from behind...haha i will gladly do these things...if i were the artist..prob lock myself in the room,then stand by a trap at the door in case someone break in to alert me theres a fire..then my family member will be trapped...and i wont care about escaping as some dude will definitely put out the fire...theres like 10,000 flowers u know...10,000..and it was done by the artists apprentice...stupid artist..must be shopping online..lazy like dont know what.. a close up picture of the metals of the metaldom of the metellica flowers...i asked the guy whether they could give me the flowers after the exbition so that i could punch a hole and make it into a necklace and sell like free...prob be a ,millionare since there are like 10,000 of them.. This is the other side of the flowers...its like one side is colourful and the other side is monochrome..actually its not monochrome its just black..aiya whatever just let me use a big word la ok...i guess life isnt always so colourful..sometimes its just so dark and hopeless like mine..ahahah joking la.. WAH this art piece reminds me of like hai long wang..then sun wu kong on top..right right..like so misty and ching chong ching... haha then i suggested that we act like as though we were underwater..it kinda failed...

so this is like some kinda japanese box thinggy..so jia lei and i decided to act seductive but ended up looking more like smacking some fly on the wall.ar whatever..

ya too fat to squeeze in la..so must take picture outside..

ahaha this totally cracked me up...
so now wanna act all emo and lovey..its quite ah lian right the colour combination..pink is not nice all the time...

cool right the book floats leh!!!

u must understand that the ride back to school was long and that a camera was present..haha plus i havent really taken a nice pic with jia lei..i think felecia looks cute in the pic..hehe

KUA KUA

2008-10-24T09:38:00.000-07:00

sometimes do you ever wonder what do you live for?
has your heart ached so much until it feels as though someone stabbed you in the chest?

2008-10-23T08:15:00.000-07:00

HELLO world..i decided to blog since my past few entries were like so dark and emotional..the thing is that i dont feel as happy as i used to be anymore..i dont really know why...its like when people ask me how i am..i dont really know how to reply them..its like i am not that depressed or anything..i guess the word is just empty?i am kinda worried about some stuff, frustrated and disappointed with some people and also really disgusted..i cant really explain it...ah well...school hasnt been that bad yet..i love modle making though..folding boxes really rocks...and i can put my earrings that i wanna sell inside..haha at the rate i am folding them i can prob set up a box shop.haha maybe for my final piece i will paint my box pink and bedazzle it..i can feel bazookas pointing at my direction already...

anyways...went to watch the vienna boy choir at the esplanade on sunday with aisyah..that girl is really stupid in a funny way..this was part of our conversation..

me: hey notice anything different about me???

aisyah: no nothing...

me: i cut my fringe u idiot

aisyah:no difference la,,its the same .anywayss i dont NOTICE you dionne

idiotness of the idiotcracy...haha i cant find anything to rhyme..u see la this kind of classmate..

then as we were watching the concert we kinda got a little excited and carried away so we talked quite loudly..and some stupid woman asked us to lower down our volume..we were discussing which guy to take and all..and aisyah decided to take the conductor..i liked this small boy who had red hair like the little mermaid...so cute right..oh my gosh...yeah our reflective hairbands thinggy didnt work out..i tried to wave to them frantically but i think they didnt really notice me..haha then after the concert there was a long queue..so aisyah thought it was some autograph session..and i told her that they may be selling the boys...its like u buy one home and make him sing for you the whole day...then stupid aisyah was like..do u think the boys study or something...she said something dumb along the line..then i was like no la..they just row boats everyday..seriously u know...

charis and i we took this picture in the toilet and i was like should i lock the door

and aisyah was like yeah and we can have mass orgy..ahaha joking..

and chirstabel thought it was VIETNAM BOYS...please la..what vietnam boys..everyday thinking about asian guys only u know that girl...CHARIS and HAZ was also there...we took a few pictures and all...i secretly thought that charis's brother was quite cute..in the small boy kinda cute..not the takuya kimura omg kinda cute...talking about cute i know some of my clique members who have a thing for the digital rendering tutor..haha hes not bad looking but not my type..war is going to break out amongst the clique..haha its anybody's game now man..lets see who will manage to get him..ahahha..jia lei think he looks a bit like a camel..and i can imagine him eating grass..er..camels do eat grass right...or hay or nuts whatever..i think they do eat nuts..theres a brand of nuts called camel nuts..right right..i go find a picture..

and TWILIGHT is the bomb..oh my gosh..i read it even when i was down with food poisoning and had a terrible headache..how i wish i had a boyfriend like edward..hes so sweet..always looking out for bella...if he was my boyfriend i will hug him every second..ok no la..maybe not..plus he can play the piano..hes good looking,protective,dashing,has a handsome father..ok this one out of point but eh handsome father in law u dont want meh..act lore...the movie is coming out soon..cant wait to watch it.

OMG FAINTS....
FAINTING...

FAINTED..robert pattinson is the cutest guy on earth besides maybe a few others..ar...i loved him since he was cedric diggory..stupid cho chang..

2008-10-21T05:47:00.000-07:00

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH THOSE IDIOTS..oh my gosh..i am so pissed...like school is not pissing me enough...i've got the suckiest teacher in the world who freaking insulted me to the core, some irresponsible people are getting on my nerves...ARGGG.....omg omg........i cant describe how much i hate that person...

2008-10-07T10:40:00.000-07:00

happy birthday to me.
i saw my timetable and i nearly fainted.school starts at 9 for 3 consecutive days.how will i be able to wake up!!!arg...i think being late for school will be an understatement!forget it!i am so going to start a new trend called the garung guni style..whereby my hair will be messy,face super pale like edward cullen in twilight,and wear baggy shorts and shirts..

everyone will be having their holidays then but will i be having my holidays?NO!i will be a sad garung guni girl who pouts all day in school...stupid school..give us holidays now for what..i end up staring out of the window doing nothing and getting sudden heart attacks when the birds perch on the window sill...and seriously whats up with giving us almost 3 hours of free time in between???to build a bondfire and dance around it in red indian costumes isit...and december is the time where everyone feels so festive and walk up and down orchard road feeling warm and rosy...but no!i have to stay in class spending half the time trying to figure out what art flame is trying to say..

life is unfair.embrace it.

2008-10-01T22:38:00.001-07:00

i saw you in my dreams,
you were so near yet so far,
and once again i was reminded of why i liked you,
your boyish charm and your cute mannerisms
are all etched inside in head...
sometimes i wished that everything was real
i am so tired of living in memories...

HELLO kitty mao

2008-09-30T05:44:00.000-07:00

HELLO..kitty..anyways yea i understand that my blog posts has been meaningless nowadays..like blogging about chang-er and all who isnt the most important person on earth....so to make the maeningless post a meaningful and memorable one...guess what heres an image you will remember forever when you think of chang-er which is none other than keith chang-er phwar!!!!pretty right still have dua ling gong flower on her/his/? head!!

i photoshopped it with my mediocre photoshopping skills..not that i wanna say myself but its not bad right..hehe..i was laughing so badly as i was doing this

hiaz...3 more days of work then freedom!i seriously am so dead everyday after work..ok maybe i do have time to hop into my grandparents and brother's room and disturb them but i feel drained all the time..i think its the stupid journey to and fro from work..plus i have to squeeze like orange juice in the morning..and after working all the guys "SMELL SO HEAVENLY" that i so do not wanna faint from their body odour..they win the title of frangrant princesses can...

ya so what do i do at work now???i play the hide from your boss and close the macdonalds game when she comes to your desk game...its super challenging and you must always be on the look out for her...i cant stand it you know..its like i do whatever i am told...

so when i have nothing to do i will go ask her for more work..and she tells me that shes busy and wants me to sit down and answer phone calls...just sit down and stare blankly leh...so i use the computer and play the macdonalds game and go online shopping and stuff..then whenever she approaches i will of course minimise the window..so one day she decided to sneak out on me from behind can..JIAN!thats the epitome of jianess...

and yesterday i had to help do some spine screening thing because one girl backed out and i had to cover for her job..actaully thats not included in my job ok but kind me decided to go help out.

so they made me wear some stupid baggy red polo tee because it was part of the uniform and the worst thing was that i wore a long skirt to work !!

OMG!!!so i ended up looking like some farmer lady ok...seriously..cambodian farmer girl was plastered all over my face...like add a farmers hat and i am ready to go plant some rice..it was so so bad ok...so now cannot play macdonalds game and to make things worst everyone will remember me as cambodian girl..

and when i did the screening for the people's spine i had to ask them to lift up their shirts and some guys backs were so hairy..if an ant crawls up their body, it probably get losts for another 10,000 years..omg its so gross ok...

i was tempted to take a shaver and shave it all off...

and that time i wore a skirt to work and it wasnt that short..just that it doesnt cover my thighs completely..then my boss gave me a towel to cover my leg leh!!!

WAH I WAS SO ANGRY then i said no i wont do it as its ridiculous...but she insisited..i wanted to throw the shredder at her face ok...and she thinks that shes damn skinny..call other people fat..she didnt refer to me but still...
but 64 dollars a day is good money la..so i just control my anger...plus i need a wardrobe makeover...i have no more clothes left...maybe i will have to borrow from my popo already...haha then i can be spokesperson for the shop granny's day out...

oh remember that time i told you guys that i cut one side of my ear piece and everyone

is anticipating for me to cut off the other one..here is the picture of my ear piece...kua kua

2008-09-19T06:09:00.000-07:00

kua kua its a long time sinced i have blogged...hiaz work is taking its toll on me man...(eh eh this sentence quite cheem right)..hehe...anyways i finally wore dresses to work..i cant be bothered anymore...even if i get scolded they cant make me strip..i mean if i really strip its their advantage not mine...haha they zhuan dao..i always used this sentence during trackers when i was changing in the girls room...luckily pastor reuben didnt like just burst forth into the room..if not he seriously must do one year of CIP to redeem himself...oh we used to slit receipts under his door at night..haha thats uber funny...

ok enough of reminescence..anyways back to the dresses topic...if i still keep wearing pants, my legs will like grow mould as they havent seen the sunlight since dont know when...and i realise that i am going to sell most of my dresses at lime flea thus i have very few dresses left..ar....dresses are my life!!!actually the boss is quite nice..she didnt say anything about my dress.....i guess shes just worried that i might accidentally expose myself when i am squatting down or something since i keep carrything things here and there and cleaning all sorts of stuff in the office..oh btw i dont just keep shredding paper i have other tasks to do also ok..like stick stickers, chop the stamp(ok this sounds werid)..and for the hundreth time i didnt cut the other side of my ear piece...everyone is like anticipating anxiously for me to do so..

anyways renee if you are reading this..HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY...i hardly put birthday wishes on my blog but you are special because you have been my darling best friend since SEC ONE!!!i remember the times when we went for netball trials together, did prefect stuff together..and actually we could have been best friends since primary 5 but you didnt dare to admit that you liked me because everyone hated me..haha but its alright..i was so gross looking i wouldnt be my own friend...oh then remember we bought some secret notebook so that we could write secrets to each other or something..and we always ate at macdonalds after netball..haha thats why i am so fat now...my sec 1 and 2 years were so fun because of YOU!!!love u loads renee and continue leading your school well and in the future you may lead the nation just like lee kwan yew..ya la ya la both have the same birthday also la..haha...so here are pictures stolen from amandal...by the way we went to SAJC to surprise renee...

HWA HWA...NOTES WRITTEN LIKE FREE!!

guess which gorgeous girl chose the cake...haha

seriously must everyone be so tall...never mind short girls can pay a cheaper rate when they enter disneyland.. sherrie's look is just priceless..i shall blow it up and paste it in my toilet when i have constipation, sure laugh until..haha u continue the sentence urself...

i like my hunter face.

Dayna: i better smile more must show off my teeth

Joyce: i am so skinny anyhow squeeze some meat

Renee:I am so going to burn your houses and suffocate your hamsters

Amandal:Extra is me!everyone curl their fingers i twist..

me: i look like cat

amandal did this..sweet eh... this is my act angelic cum shu ni face...actually its the play safe smile because i realise that i dont really know how to smile properly..i am cameraphobic..i rather open my mouth super big then smile...

and since amandal just loves taking random ugly shots of me..vote which one is your favourite ok...

#1:the niam face

#2: can you not hum ching pang face

#3: oh my gosh you know who wanna marry me face

eheh i kinda like the 3rd expression alot..haha

anyways i am super super happy today because my daddy bought me my favourite vera wang princess perfume which i hoped for since i was sec3...i remembered before leaving for a country i will always go into the duty free shop at the airport to spray the perfume for fun... wah if i everytime i spray i can be as pretty as the model, i will drink the whole bottle and even use it as shampoo...the bag is so pretty right

the sexes!!!haha.. and the best thing is that you can unscrew the top and use the little crown as a ring or a pendant..so cool right.. Like this: okie dokies i got to go meditate...bye

2008-09-14T07:05:00.000-07:00

hello..happy lantern day festival!!!may you see chang er as you walk home and may mooncakes appear under your pillow suddenly...it happens once in a blue moon..EH GET IT A NOT LIKE MOON CAKES AND MOON....number one best punner is i!

for those people who have been locking yourself at home and playing PSP like as though its the greatest invention in the world and u dont have a single idea who chang er is, heres a picture of chang er...and that stupid rabbit that wanna act cute and fluffy and all..anyways we should all be like chang er because she is super sacrificial and she loves her husband dearly...plus she gets to be pretty and just stay on the moon all day with her pet...unlike me, she doesnt have to work and shred paper all day and she wont own an i pod and accidentally snip off one side of her ear phone...plus even if she gets a super bad break out LIKE WHAT I AM GOING THROUGH NOW...no body sees it except her rabbit friend who doesnt give a damn and just wanna eat cabbage all day...nothing exciting has happened in my life so far....besides the fact that i wanna get a blue extension and my mum may think of disowning me if that happens..i thought of changing my style and start being gothic...i shall put super a lot of eyeliner and have a blue extension..then everyone will be scared of me!!!!

ok..whatever...nobody cares that i scare...so ronda and i went out on saturday...we were shameless and went to takashimaya to try mooncake samples...wah the rasberry mooncake was so nice ...after one bite...i felt as though i transformed into the mooncake princess....(and can you know who stop signing in and out of msn tempting me to talk to him and melt whenever i see his dp...)i saw a dress that i wanted to buy but i havent gotten my pay yet...the thought of work makes me wanna puke...

hiaz this is random...but i keep scratching myself with my nails...now my whole body has scratch marks...liking someone is so tiring sometimes...and you wonder why cant the person that likes you just like you back..then everything will be settled and you wont turn emo and start writing emo poems out of the blue...and when u look at trees it wont remind you of someone and you can really look at the tree as a tree and not as a reminder of someone..haha..ok whatever..you know what..its time that i start chanelling my energy to somewhere else and stop thinking of someone with a similar nick name as lord voldermot!

ps. can everyone stop trying to set up fan clubs for my brother..

fine i shall be as creative as him and write a poem..my poem writing skills are fabulous ok..here it goes...

today the moon is round,

i can swim so i will not drown,

i wanna be a princess so that i can wear a crown,

my brother and i both have the same skin colour which is brown,

the thought of you know who makes me smile sometimes and also frown,

i cut off one side of my ear piece thus i could not hear a sound,

the opposite of up is down!!!yay

see coolness to the max rightmy poem..ar so now its time to set up a fan club for me as i am also witty..hehe

may the mooncake spirit be with you now and forevermore...

2008-09-11T09:04:00.000-07:00

it just grows deeper everyday
and i will wait till the end of time